A dear friend this morning sent me a message with lost hope. She wrote, “Well right now I’m questioning even God and if He is even listening or bothering with us down here.” We went back and forth for a bit as I struggled in making her understand that God is everywhere. She knows this, but like her, we need reminders. People have karmic lessons they must pay. They have individual paths and experiences they choose to follow. God doesn’t step in with a magic wand to erase those choices. Our individuality is an element of free will and it’s attached to everything we choose in our paths. I can’t fix my children anymore than I can fix the state of the world. I can pray and empathize with others. I cannot and will not take their responsibilities onto me. Those days are over. I can love others but foremost need to love me.
As spiritual beings living a human life we tend to define self-love as selfishness. We are conditioned to feel guilty and ashamed when we want alone time. It’s almost as if the dogma of God has been manipulated to instill fear in our aloneness. This isn’t so. God is everywhere. In our struggles and obstacles the light of divinity leads the way. In happiness and joy Spirit comforts us with amazing vibrations. Whenever we over extend ourselves to others we are depleted of energy source. We want to help and mend the broken hearted. We want to hold hands with those in need, but we forget to take care of ourselves first. Then we begin to question, “Where’s God in all of this?” He is in you, in me, in the earth. He is the embodiment of every particle and energy source around us. He’s not sitting on a cloud watching us move like an ant colony. We are the thoughts of His guidance and in the decisions we make. He is in the stories of the past, the present and the future. God resides in the most intimate moments of a single word, thought and action. Every journey leads to light, while having to travel the darkest corners of life.
It’s difficult enough to mend and travel our own lifeline. Put others in the melting pot and it seems suffocating at times. Faith is that thing that can’t be seen but it carries us. That’s where God resides. The unknown is just that…not known. I remember reading somewhere that “life just seems so full of connections. Most of the time we don’t even pay attention to the depth of life. We only see flat surfaces.” I believe God lies in the depth, in those little details disregarded in the path. I am seeing Divinity existing in so many places now. Being present is being in pure light of omnipotence. God is in me as He is in you.
We have no right to ask when suffering, hardship or struggles come our way, why is this happening to me? why me? what have I done to deserve this? unless we also ask the same question when love, joy, happiness, and goodness come our way. God doesn’t just appear in moments of plead and weakness. He is there in gratitude and grace. For every lesson learned there is a wonderful journey ahead. You can’t have the dark without the light. There is no strength in the unbelief. Courage arrives in moments of releasing it all to something greater: call it God, Divinity, Spirit…however you care to address the universal movement of the soul.
Moments of impact make the sum of our experiences. Each day that I let go, surrender to the NOW, is a moment of great impact. Everything becomes a surprise. Every person who enters my space is a gift. Up here, on this mountain Spirit answers in my private sessions, in my alone time. I witness it on my deck. The Great Mystery sits, holds me and allows me to just be still while the cold wind blows, the dew sits on the rocks, the ice floats on the pond, and the trees dance to the sunrise blowing snowflakes everywhere. When life gives you a thousand reasons to mourn, show Spirit that you have a million reasons to smile. We are all born for greatness. Allow yourself the gift of belief, faith and certainty that there is something greater carrying you through it all. It makes for a mystical life of truth and peace knowing that you are made of infinite spirit. You are never alone.
“God is in all things, but so far as God is Divine and so far as he is rational, God is nowhere so properly as in the soul—in the innermost of the soul.” – Meister Eckhart