Last night, close to midnight, the office doorbell rang. I had been sleeping for a couple of hours and the noise immediately felt like glass breaking all over me. I actually woke feeling the pressure of something falling on my body. Matt was up and answered the door and instantly I felt a surge of negative energy consume the room just down the hall. He came and asked if I would check the man in. I answered, “Nooooo. No way!” And when he told the guy that it was too late and we were closed the man blew cigarette smoke into the room and left pissed off. From the bed I heard the loud muffler of his truck and then the peeling out the drive way onto the main road. I knew my decision was correct! I felt horrible for a long time. It took lots of meditation, prayer and sacred visualization to remove the dark stagnant vibration left from just that moment. The heavy presence of darkness, sadness, and oppression lingered with intensity. I felt sick just from a few seconds of interaction, and it wasn’t even with me. But, we are always protected. These events confirm the depth of awareness and allowance in listening to Divine guidance. I begin to witness how this magical place has been evolving. We are no longer a motel on a country road. We are heading to the goal that we’ve intended since buying this place: to be a retreat only place of peace, healing and rest.
Through sleepless hours ahead I began to think of 2014. Some years have that same negative stagnation. Some are just awesome years. This year for me has been about death, birth, transformation, loss, awareness, grief, awakening, letting go, and a lot more that I had thought was addressed years ago. I am ready, with giddiness, to welcome 2015. I am peeling out of this year, hopefully while not leaving anger and darkness behind me, but with an awareness that everything has appeared for growth. I am peeling out with rebirth and acceptance for the beautiful challenges and events that are behind us.
Yes…I am ready. Yessssss! Absolutely freaking….YES! Please join me in that excitement for a great upcoming year….