I have ran around
the truth
of ever knowing what I knew
while denying my intuition
the right to decide
and adhere to its validity.
I’ve spent years,
time and energy,
avoiding this truth
and here it is
directly in my face —
I can’t disregard its motion any longer;
I can’t avoid its existence
with its ugliness and rawness…
I can finally let go and fly free.
It’s been years,
but it feels like yesterday,
for the depth,
the ache,
the humiliation
has arrived with
a surprising force
allowing ego to take the driver’s seat.
I will not wallow
in self-pity,
self preservation,
as I know Karma
has no expiration date.
You were always so eager
to point out to the world
my flaws,
my human traits,
in every situation that
arrived
that was not in accordance
with your universe.
I have no use to continue
this confirmation
that breezed into my life
with today’s rain,
rattling leaves,
breaking branches,
causing a mild flood
so I can finally terminate
the need to soften our memories
to our children,
our friends,
and specially to myself
while making excuses for
our failures.
I’ve spent a life
running from those thoughts,
the traumas created by dictatorship,
and I finally feel the breath
of divinity guiding me through
any dark moments.
Benefit of doubt
is only good for those
who can truly change.
I forgave you long ago,
even when I didn’t know,
even when you twisted and turned
all truth.
Forgiveness wasn’t for you…
it was for me.
I spent a life
falling in and out of love
with myself
because of you…
but tonight
I finally know the truth:
you never deserved me
and my whole-hearted trust.
Sacred Journey 
hope this was cathartic.. and I love the line Karma has no expiration date. You are so expressive Millie; you carry me through your words.
Sweetie it is all good. Thank you always.
mixed emotions with thoughts wavering!
Much love to you!
very touching and cathartic, love it
😄
Oh Millie ~ this was so strong, so powerful and I think so HEALING!! I really hope so … an incredible write – and moved me to read. Empowerment and Rebirth was what I felt — I hope that is right-on ~ Love to you dearest friend ~ Robyn
It has been a great catalyst as words usually are when released. Thank you for your kindness. This year has been about surrendering and releasing. All very important for spiritual growth. Mucho love to you!
“I will not wallow
in self-pity,
self preservation,
as I know Karma
has no expiration date.”
Damn… this is deep. Powerful words…
Many thanks for reading and seeing the depth.
Wow. Sounds like your journey was into some deeper territory than just sitting in the backseat of a physical car… You have gone places few of us are awake enough to see. Don’t stop now! You have places to go, and miles to go before you sleep…
Your words resonate deeply. Many thanks for the encouragement. Always!!!!
Forgiveness wasn’t for you…
it was for me.
Good reminder, Millie. Forgiveness is never for you, it’s always for me…and in forgiving me, I forgive you, too! xoxoM
Thank you, my sweet friend. Mucho amor y cariño. Millie
I know exactly who you’re writing about, and all I can say is AMEN. You’ve been on this particular journey for a long time; and I’m sure that at times you feel it may never end, but it looks to me like you’re ready for a new, much happier journey. LOVE & PEACE, SIS!!
Amen! Thank you sis.
Love the conclusion the best. Forgiveness is one of the hardest things for me but I loving myself after a
After a time of verbal abuse was even harder.
thank you, my sweet friend.
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Thank you so kindlY!