Apology Epidemic


There are things we do that diminish our worth to others. One of them is the constant apologizing for what we like, who we are, and what we do. I lived a life apologizing for things that didn’t require an apology. We have personality traits and if you are constantly apologizing to your friends and family for your choices then it’s time to step back and start checking yourself.

I go to bed early. I don’t necessarily go to sleep but I like being in bed early with a book, unwinding, watching a movie or just chilling. For decades this was an issue of ridicule with others who do not go to bed early. However, I get up around 3 or 4 every morning. I could care less if anyone else does it. I don’t judge anyone else for sleeping in. I don’t care. I would spend my evenings giving excuses and apologizing for wanting to have my alone time. It took me years of stressing over it when folks were visiting me. As soon as I started to feel like it was “that time” comments were made and I would feel even worst. One day I realized that perhaps I needed to ask them if they wanted to join me for coffee in the early morning instead of apologizing for what I enjoyed doing every night. Guess what? No one wanted that morning early rise!

There is a horrible apology-epidemic, especially with women. We do so much and when we fall short of doing one thing we begin to apologize. Let’s be clear on something: if you hurt another, apologize. If you do something unintentionally and another has been affected, please apologize. But apologizing for the sake of making someone else feel better while you feel worse, not acceptable! Apologizing to end an argument when you are not in the wrong: no, way Jose! You are not helping that person take responsibility for their actions. You are enabling them and they get used to it.

You like your wine in the evening? Don’t apologize for this. You like to be alone in the mornings? Don’t give an excuse. Your children come first and you rather spend time with them than go to anyone’s house? Do not apologize for loving anyone. Whatever you don’t want to do is your life…don’t do it. “No, thank you!” is sufficient. You do not have to lament over what you don’t want to do. Guess what? You are going to hurt people. People will get butt-hurt over the silliest of things because they want to manipulate you into doing what they want you to do.  Guilt-trips are a cheap way of traveling…. Guess what else? If they love you, they will get over it.

I would say sorry for everything even when it wasn’t anything I did. It was sickening. I still have trouble with certain subjects. These days I will not apologize for the things I like. I will not apologize for who I am. I will not offend anyone with my truth of what I want to do. I’m not asking you to have a “suck-it-up-butter-cup” attitude. I want you to live authentically within your truth. We owe no one an excuse or an explanation for our likes and dislikes (once again, unless you are harming another and then “sorry” just doesn’t cut it).

Stop giving another value before yourself. The other day I called someone “sweetheart” in a middle of a conversation. The woman lost it with me. She put me in my place and I was taken aback. I noted that the term of endearment in the future was a no-no. I didn’t apologize. I call everyone honey, darling, sweetheart, sweetie, etc. I am not going to apologize for who I am. I just noted that it was not welcomed ever again so now I am careful not to ruffle her feathers. This is who she is. I get it. But, this is who I am and when a sweet word slips out I am not responsible for how she perceives it. I will never say anything to another to purposely hurt them. I am conscious of this. When another embarrasses me to make themselves feel better, hey that’s on them. Of course, I will send love to them but I will no longer participate in being their punching bag.

Part of a healthy spiritual life is being honest with those things that make you. You are responsible for you and you alone. It’s not selfish. It’s self care and self love. We love our spouses, our family, our children, our friends, and our pets. We will care for them and make sure they are all taken care of…but the first person you need to care for is yourself. Excessive apologizing doesn’t come across as sympathetic. It comes across as wounded. I know cause this was me for a million years. And, it’s still a work in progress. The more love I give myself, the less I have to apologize for the things I like…including having my alone time in the evening. There is freedom in letting things go without having to walk on eggshells around others. Love yourself with the utmost degree that you love another. Give that invaluable gift to YOU!

2 thoughts on “Apology Epidemic

  1. You are right we shouldn’t have to apologize for our behavior that is natural to ourselves. I go to bed early too and I get up very early too. But there are times I do try to stay in bed late. It’s about 20 minutes to two and I am ready to go to bed now. But I will push myself to stay up.

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