Colors of Us

Love is a privilege given to all

to take

or not.

Your call this morning

yanked me out of sweet sleep.

Your first words,

“I love you.  I miss you”

woke me like a bucket of cold water

splattered

against my warm body…

I stopped you,

halting all of your jabbing

slurring into the morning light.

You needed to be heard

and when you finished

the mumble jumble of puzzled words

I hung up to wash you off my spirit.

I stood in a hot steaming shower,

placed my face against the cold tile

as the water scolded me

and I stared at the smoke rising

realizing the difference between us:

I think in colors, pretty shapes, and music.

You think in darkness, straight lines and equations.

I need you to release the colors I placed

in your heart a while ago.

Let me have my love back.

I can’t breathe without that return.

My colors obviously cannot light

the gloom you continue to carry,

but I will always love you

more than the privilege deserves.

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27 thoughts on “Colors of Us

  1. Did you write this for me?? haha! Only kidding, but it is pretty perfect. I especially like, “You think in dark straight lines and equations.” AND, “My colors obviously cannot light the gloom you continue to carry…”
    I’d like to wash somebody off my spirit, too.

    1. It happened this morning. I am so sorry that you are going through this. Marilyn Monroe said, “sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”. And sometimes we just need to clear out the junk! Stay strong, girlfriend.

  2. free penny press

    Lot of this emotion swirling around in the universe.. I understand this so well, but don’t ask the love back.. In your loving you made yourself shine that much brighter 🙂

  3. I know who that nameless caller was just by your words, and I’m sorry you had to deal with that crap again. BUT I also know you’ve been doing a great job of “washing [him] off [your] spirit” when the need has arisen. I love that line, by the way! And…”I will always love you more than the privilege deserves” says it all — its PERFECT!
    Still have more of your posts to read — in date/time received order — but haven’t had much time to myself these last several days. You know I WILL read them though. After all, I’m one of those people who first suggested that you start a blog. Love you bunches!!!

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