I take the month of April as a time to celebrate. All 30 days honor as my birthday. On April 1st, I lost one of my sweet elderly clients. I loved him dearly. Although he was in hospice care, I didn’t expect his departure. On April 3rd, I lost a family member who died way too young, leaving three young girls. Yesterday I visited a brand new baby at the hospital who will be adopted by a beautiful couple. She was born from a crack addict who abandoned her as soon as she could leave. Holding her in my arms completed the circle of life. As two souls left this world, this little one came in fighting for her existence. Life is fluid and magical. I left the hospital celebrating it all…the losses and the gains. All three cases are heartbreaking and require emotional acknowledgment. All three souls touched me in deep ways. I keep hearing the pain out there but I also keep rejoicing the healing and love.
A week ago my husband and I made another difficult decision. We will be taking on another child who needs a loving home. We will love him with the same ferocity and acknowledgment that we’ve given to others. I will be 50 years old in two weeks. It’s not an easy decision but it is the right one. He sat across from me and shared that “Batman never questioned or ignored his bat signals. He armored up and went to the call….” In this case he is Batman…and I am his side kick (yours truly). We will answer the call and provide the superpower of love.
I suspect this is going to be one of the most intensely surprising April’s. We leave in two weeks to Machu Picchu on a spiritual journey of sorts. It’s been calling for me for some time. And, we need this before re-entering another phase of parenting. I sat across from him and said, “Darling, this is not my first rodeo. This will be number 8. I know how this works. This is number 2 for you. I know you will continue to be magnificent in your role….” So, Peru will be healing and full of mystical surprises. My spiritual guides have been preparing me for some incredible experiences there.
I feel it’s time to recharge and return to the origins of me. It’s hard to define that. It involves faith, grace, and acceptance. I suspect that something is emerging and it’s lovely on so many levels. I am open to the expedition of self. It is spring after all…regrowth and newness.
I urge you to make decisions without worrying about how others will react. I ask that you live fully and love openly. Life is fragile and beautiful. You get to decide how you choose to live it. You never know what’s around the corner even when you think you have it all figured out. I look forward to my journeys…the trip and another round of motherhood. For months I was living with panic attacks and anxiety during the night. I couldn’t figure out why. My soul knew of the changes. I resisted unknowingly in my human form. Once it showed up I was able to return to peace. And here we are…today is beyond lovely. Our little boy will be arriving to a home full of joy and love.
I want that for you as well….joy and love. Over and over again. I love you.
13 thoughts on “New Beginnings”
Happy birthday month! Happy family growth!!!
Thank you, darling. Being mindful and grateful for the journey.
i enjoy all of your posts. Please have a safe and fun trip to Peru. I wish you and yours all the blessings in the world. Happiest of birthday months to you!
Thank you so much. Grateful for the love and support.
Oh….Can I get in your suitcase when you go??? Always dreamed of going there.That and walking the Camino….Have a fabulous time and take pictures! We’d love to see them 🙂 Have a happy birthday month and God bless you for doing what you do with kids. I know they appreciate it! Be well and much love to you….VK ❤
I will post pictures. Thank you kindly. Sending lots of love.
Oh! My! Gosh! I wish I could hide in your suitcase! But I’ll be watching for photos!!
Adopting another child. That’s wonderful!! I know that boy will receive all the unconditional love he could ask for and more! What a great birthday gift to give yourself!
Happy Birth Month, Sister-Friend!!
We are in the very early stages. Not posting it on FB as it will be a while. Sending lots of love your way. Thank you for the constant kindness and support.
Blessings sent to Batman and his “sidekick”, fairydust!! Happy birthday, happy wishes for your adventure and happy Mother’s day.
You are my mentor… never hold back.
Much love —
You are mine. Love you.
Thank you, dear one.
Happy birthday soul sister. Happy flying with Batman into your chapter together. Happy adventuring in Peru. Wrapping you all in love. ❤ xXx
❤️ thank you, darling.