When I’ve been hurt that’s what I do. I cut all ties, take my losses and move on. I refuse to be where I’m no longer loved. Unfortunately, patterns of dependency need extremes. It doesn’t make it right. It doesn’t make it wrong. People are driven by habits. They don’t let go when they can find their ego being right.
This doesn’t mean I don’t mourn. It doesn’t mean I don’t revisit lovers or friendships or relatives in my thoughts and dreams. It just means that I need to honor my feelings deeply. I need to love from afar. I need to continue loving them from over here instead of over there.
Relationships don’t break without reason. At least not for me. It takes a while. I am non-confrontational. I will avoid arguments. I will avoid judgments. I will avoid negativity. I don’t tolerate name calling or demoralizing behavior. When I finish something it is because I’ve tried other ways to reason and speak calmly. When I have tried for some time and nothing changes I am done. It might be a character default because at times it leaves the other party speechless and deeply hurt. People need closure and I am not kind with that. I feel if they look back they may be able to trace where and how things became disconnected. That would also mean they have to take some accountability for their actions.
This is not for everyone. Most people need the finality with reasoning. I find this alone. There are times in the middle of the night that I wake yearning for those folks. I go into meditation. I forgive them and myself. I visit them in the best of light…when things were yummy and wonderful. I don’t focus on the crap. The hurt disappears. We are human. I hurt them. They hurt me. We move on. To hold on to the past is a waste of precious time now. The presence of sacredness is vital for me to live in harmony.
Who do you need to forgive? Is it yourself? Whomever it is please do it. Write them a letter and burn it. Write it for you. Make your peace and stop carrying old wounds of yesterday. Anger, hurt, jealousy, hate…they are destructive aspects that are birthed from a lower frequency. Your mind controls them not the other way around.
Every person in your life has been a teacher. You’ve learned so much from the good and the bad. Accept this life as one giant classroom of spiritual growth. Keep graduating. Keep growing and expanding your consciousness.
Sending love to all. Let go. Keep letting go and return to a harmonious state of being by accepting and living in your authentic truth. Honor that!!!