Unhealed People

I spent a large part of my life hiding. Recently, after a healing session with an incredible soul, I recognized the patterns and programming. I shared with an old friend who immediately said, “Oh honey, you’ve been hiding all your life. I’m so sorry!”

Her sorry was genuine and my tears flowed out again. She saw me. Really saw the trail of bullshit left behind by a Narcissistic mother. And I’ve been working on cutting cords for so long. I tend to listen to the voices of the past when I try to lead my children in the now. I don’t want to be like my mother. I second guess every single major decision in spite of what my heart and intuition show me.

In spite of all my deep awareness and knowing I am not exempt from all my human lessons and challenges. I am always on the trail of mending.

Healing is about release. It’s surrendering to the now while letting go of what has kept you captive. This can be physical, emotional or spiritual. I don’t believe in examining and re-examining the past because that story is no longer there. We create new ones but at some point ancestral wounds need to be cut.

Sometimes we don’t really know what’s inside no matter how much we work on ourselves. It takes an outsider to guide your spirit on a new journey and quest.

Here is what I continue to learn daily: unhealed people hurt through their unknowing-ness. They don’t recognize they are hurting anyone, especially a child. As I continue to feel seen the vulnerability is heighten. I am no longer a little chubby scared girl feeling judged by the world. I am no longer a 20 something woman walking on eggshells afraid of what others think of me.

The healing sticks when we become aware of how we allow toxic energy from others. Those folks continue to show up to remind us of our growth. I am blessed they continue to show me how to set healthy boundaries.

I hope you can also see them and send them love. You don’t have to participate in their dramas. I see you. I honor you. I love you.

Life is Epic

I woke this morning sick of my stories, the drama I repeat, and the never ending struggle to find peace among the storms that are not real but living in my little head. It’s sickening. This being, and just allowing, is not for sissies. No one said that the spiritual walk was meant to BE a walk in the park! It takes massive amount of discipline and I don’t follow orders very well…even when it’s from the esoteric world. So…I got up…did my meditation…had to stop right in the middle and said, “F*@k this crap! I can do this. I have manifested incredible experiences in this lifetime. I can let this go and move on without this struggle. This is my own ego creating this shit! I am more than this scene, this stage, and this production!!!”

I got up turning the “cannot” into “will do.”

We have the complete capacity and power to change our thoughts. In those moments I feel the swirl of energy directing me into joy, faith, and love. The heart opens up when I let go of the toxic stories I retell myself. It’s just a shift in perception. I promise.

Aren’t you sick of your same old stories, drama, struggles, and total bullshit (because it is just crap)? Then change the channel…tune into the mass consciousness of love…for you and the world. Get out of your head. Get out of your way…you got this! I know it may all feel heavy at this moment.

Put it down. Stop giving it power. Move away from it for a little while. You may come back to it at another time.

Onward and outward, darlings. Take one breath at a time and move through your knowing. Accept your magnificence and inner guidance. That is your internal GPS. Reroute if you must. But keep going.

Have a blessed day! I love you.

Living Consciously

Living a life full of conscious awareness is not easy. We have to take responsibility for our lives and everything that happens in it. We cannot blame the world for what happens, will happen or never happens. We have choices. These choices are part lessons and part programming. The spiritual process of letting go requires shutting up the ego and living by faith…the knowing and accepting those things that aren’t in the comfort zone. It’s a matter of accepting the ugliness, the failures, the shame, the disgust and also all the wonderful experiences. We are made of duality. We need the dark in order to have the light and vice versa.

A simple definition for insanity is repeating the same thing over and over while expecting a different result. Detect the projections of others and your participation! Accept your responsibility in your story! Reject the same markers of dramatically filled egos! You got this. You do NOT have to continue living through past markers. You have the power to change the programming and move forward into a life that’s free of hurt and loss. We are not meant to struggle in such a way that we become paralyzed to the freedom of self-love and self-acceptance. Our worth is NOT suppose to be sacrificed. On the other side of this backward mind belief is JOY waiting to be embraced. Your authenticity is powerful and you are the only who can get you there…stop looking at the rear view mirror…you don’t live there anymore! Check out the beauty ahead!!!

Sacred Living through the Mundane

Faithful beginnings are led by sacred endings. Sometimes we are caught in the in-between for a bit waiting for the signs of what’s coming. It’s not an easy space to be. It’s full of unknowns and uncertainties. We forget to live in the moment, especially during these wobbly times. We keep thinking about tomorrow and next month… instead of taking in the NOW.

I urge you to make time for aloneness, for yourself, for your spirit. It is then that answers come and there is full clarity. These moments come in so many different manners throughout our days.

I love humans. I love connections. And, although, I will talk to anyone and anything, I need time alone. I can dive into a book and get lost; watch a movie and enjoy the solitude; and eat with silence as my companion. And, even with two small children I will steal moments of solitude as often as I can. To breathe and return to mindfulness and deep awareness.

I will be sharing 30 days of mindful-sacred living (even through the mundane of our daily lives) on my Sacred Journey Facebook page starting on Tuesday for the entire month of September… every morning. It’s easy to feel as if we need to retreat from our lives in order to re-energize, but it isn’t so.

Make a date with yourself often. Give your brain a break. Have mini vacations alone for moments here and there. You need restoration and recharging. We all do. But there is so much we can do without escaping our lives. The world is pretty chaotic and our spirits need to be reminded that we get to choose how we show up.

It’s a new month. New beginnings. And lovely experiences. Hope to see you over in the page.

Expansion of Consciousness

“Consciousness is the highest word you will ever utter.” -Michael A. Singer

Here we are experiencing the expansion of consciousness. Every single day. Lately more intense than other times. Some folks aren’t handling it well. It’s that extreme. The more empathetic you are the harder it feels to stay grounded.

So we feel it in the physical body. We feel it in our emotional stories. We are navigating some amazing times and it’s conjuring up lots of release and old paradigms.

Stop beating yourself up for the past. Stop replaying the stories from yesteryears. Stop trying to make the past fit into your present life, and adjusting it to recreate in the future. Whatever belief you have will manifest quickly so be mindful of what you want. Energy doesn’t lie and it also doesn’t decipher from negative or positive. It attaches to all that is happening now. We are evolving and ascending to higher realms of consciousness.

If you are struggling recognize that you aren’t alone. We are here for each other. Reach out please. Sending love to all.

Love Shack Classes

Welcome to the “Love Shack” relationship course series!

Instructed by Millie America Parmer and David Cogan Holt
Weekly, Sept 4th – 25th.

Are you trying to work things out in your relationship, but getting nowhere? Do you want to attract an amazing relationship? Or are you facing, going through, or fearing a separation? How is the relationship with yourself?

If you resonate with any of these, then welcome to ‘The Love Shack’!…a place to heal and release all negative relationship patterns, beliefs and habits with self and others.

We will address these challenges from a ‘Soul Power’ perspective. That means you can discover how your Soul can solve, heal and release everything that prevents you from having what you want in a relationship. Strengthening the connection to who you really are is the most important thing you can do to improve all areas of your life.

We all need guides to become the heroes of our lives. If you don’t have what you want in a relationship, now is the time to invest in your Love life. We’re making it very accessible, easy to use, with techniques and progress you can experience right away. While we’re all cooped up, ‘forced’ to go within (both literally and metaphorically!) and this pandemic challenges us, why not use this time to resolve the issues you have? Genuine inner work typically brings intrinsic outer changes.

During this 4 week course, you can experience deep healing of negative relationship patterns, negative beliefs, and past trauma. You will also learn advanced healing techniques so that you can continue expanding, until you completely mend relationships, attract a great relationship, or move more gracefully through a separation. And perhaps most importantly – fall madly, head-over-heals in Love with yourself!

We’ll meet in a private facebook group, created just for this course. Because of this, you can make connections and receive support from Millie and I, and the group anytime. Millie and I will host a weekly 1 hour session every Friday at 12pm EST, USA. Sept 4 – 25th

That’s where we’ll offer live healings, instruction, Q & A…have some fun and lift spirits!
$88. Limited to 25 participants to ensure quality experience. To register, click link. For questions, contact Millie or Dave Holt

https://www.paypal.com/cgi-bin/webscr?cmd=_s-xclick&hosted_button_id=U65SD4KT7AR7U

Upcoming Events on Facebook

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I am so excited about upcoming guests on Facebook Lives in my personal account Millie America Parmer (which is public) in the next few weeks. Here is the schedule of what’s to come:
All the times are Eastern Time in United States.
Wednesday, August 19th at 6:30PM eastern time – Author and poet extraordinaire John Roedel will be chatting about his work, especially Dear John poems that have gone viral.
Friday, August 21st at 12:00PM eastern time – David Holt of The Soul Surfers will be joining me again to introduce upcoming online courses. Relationships, health, and soul connections are top subjects. This is an interactive Q&A full of wonderful information.
Tuesday, August 25th at 6:30PM eastern time – Astrologer, Liz Gunn, will be joining me for Q&A about what to expect the rest of this year. I am hopeful!!!!
Thursday, August 27th at 6:30PM eastern time – Christopher August of Soul in Wonder and hebreathportal.com and christopheraugust.co. We will discussing breathwork and other healing modalities. Chris and his wife, Sara, have an amazing story. I hope you join us for his share.  www.soulinwonder.com
Wednesday, Sept. 2nd at 6:30PM eastern time – Sarah Poet of Embodied Breath will be joining me. Sarah is a magnificent teacher and coach. She specializes in heling modern women to wake up to the truth of who they are. She also works with couples in counseling. Join us for an interactive Q&A.  www.sarahpoet.com

Please feel free to join us live. If you can’t, I will repost it on the FB Sacred Journey page right after.

 

I am truly looking forward to all the sweet souls who will particiate and share. These folks are gifted loving spirits with so much to offer us.  Loving you all from here…

Millie

 

Don’t Feed Fears

I feel that we give our fears power when we don’t talk about them. The secrets and worries we hold inside reinforce that toxic energy. We give it (or them) life. We add a vibration into our lives by obsessing on those “things” we don’t share out of shame or guilt or old programming.

One of my old personality programs has been controlled. I fall into a fearful moment of feeling as if another (or a system) is controlling my decisions. There is a difference between being influenced and handing over my complete life to another. I ask often, “how is this fear of being controlled running my life?” In most cases it isn’t. It’s all an illusion. It’s old experiences of feeling helpless in situations. I have grown enough to know that I am in complete authority of my decisions and choices. And, I give room to the unexpected and wonderful divine guidance.

What do you fear that stops you from moving forward at this time? What Influences you to feed those fears?

This is a non-judgment zone, darlings.

Sending love your way.

Where is Home for You

Each time I step away for a bit into nature I mumble to myself, “I am Home.” Then I ask myself on the next breath, “What is that? What is it that defines home?”

At times home is a description, an intricate noun of familiarity setting a place, person, or thing to feel a connection to our soul. I am home with my children around me feeling safe. I am home while holding a friend’s hand in need. I am home through laughter and deep conversations. But my true home, where I find peace, solace and acceptance, is nature. Whether it be on a river kayaking or collecting heart-shaped rocks, or sitting on a giant boulder witnessing a waterfall, I am home again. The outside world becomes an illusion. Struggles don’t exist in the mind.

Nature doesn’t judge or asks anything of what I’m not. It accepts my essence in just being present in the stillness of the now. In these moments problems melt, and like decomposed soil, I shred the inklings of my humanness and become light in spirit. It is meditation at its finest. It is life at its sweetest. Nature allows me to get lost and find myself in the center of the universe. I will always search for glimpses of nature throughout my days.

Home.
It’s the seat of our soul. It’s the essence of awareness. It’s the OM of all universal wisdom. May you find it like we did today. And may you also feel the call of God through those things you witness.

Where is home for you? Please share in comments. I love you.

These are Amazing Times

These are incredibly delicate and exciting times. Do you feel it? I’m not talking about the chaos and the uncertainties. I am talking about the awareness that life will never be what it was. And, that’s okay because what will become is fuller and softer at the same time.

What happens when we open so widely to the world around us? Every single cell expands in gratitude. We become magic. We embody the mysticism of all there is and ever was.

There are major forces happening now. There is a collective shift that feels mystical right underneath all we hear and see. We are evolving into higher dimensions. Time is accelerated. We are witnessing the collapsing of many old programs and the building of a new paradigm.

What does this mean?
It means that we are expanding into our divine truths. We are becoming what we came here to BE. We are being forced to reboot our DNA into higher frequencies. We are becoming a newly evolved superhuman because all of that is happening. It is pulling and pushing a depth in us to come out of comfort and what we believed to be true.

The matrix is dismantling all around us. I know it’s hard, darlings. It’s f*ckery at its finest. But unfortunately we don’t ever seem to learn through ease. We are a race that has been programmed to fight and survive. But, it doesn’t have to be so hard. It won’t be as we move to new dimensions.

We are truly on the edge of something powerful. It started a few years ago and now I am witnessing as it moves quicker. Manifesting faster. Letting go without resistance. Metamorphosing into all that we are required to become… alone and together.

Allow yourself time to just be. Give yourself permission to listen to all parts of yourself without judgment. Stop comparing your journey. Stop trying to guess and manipulate what may happen. Go deep in your essence. When all else is quiet you can feel your truth rise to salute you. It’s not just magical, it’s part of your existence. Release and surrender. You are not surviving. You are living in divine light, experiencing through love, lessons and ultimate humanitarian compassion. And most importantly, please I beg of you, show up always through love. Love is what raises your DNA and frequency. Give it away easily. Keep yourself in that vibration. You cannot be love and fear at the same time.

I love you mucho!