Rumination

rumination

Breathe silence,

exhale peace.

Breathe love,

exhale joy.

Enter the center

of the universe

allowing the “I”

in “I am”

to solidify,

mystify,

and move beyond.

Come…

exhale,

inhale,

fly through the cosmos

searching for divinity

in the only

place

it exists…

inside of

Y

O

U.

Your Universe

Live life centered

around your being,

the essence radiating light.

Do not spin your energy

in someone else’s nucleus.

You are only responsible for you

and the matter created

from divinity.

Those who gravitate to your spirit

can borrow the light

but not remove it to make it theirs.

You are an individual with purpose;

this life plan is yours alone.

Many can travel along your path

but only you know where

you are headed.

Be the brightest lighthouse

guiding your existence…

be the “I AM” of your universe.

The Deepest Place of Truth

goddess truth

I have been through a significant growth spurt lately and I can feel it through an expansion of my heart. I have come to a simple understanding at this age. I am more comfortable with me and how I carry myself. I feel lighter from all the hang-ups, past voices, and self-sabotaging that controlled me in my twenties and thirties. I am living true to myself. I am honest with what I see and how I translate it. I have shredded the labels from society and expectations of how I am supposed to be. I am not so worried about how the information is consumed by another or how they perceive me for that matter. I have also “cleaned house” in relationships, friendships, and toxic emotional vampires.

You see, I now know something that my younger self refused to see: truth. You can’t know truth until you live authentically to your soul’s yearning. You will never know that you have been sleeping until you awake. This awakening is nothing more than the acceptance of everything inside of you: weight, health, humor, sadness, anger, fears, and all the yuckiness that comes with being human. It’s all an illusion. When you finally let go of the lies you can learn the truth of happiness, love, and compassion for yourself. When all deception of the ego is gone that’s when your true self emerges. I know it’s difficult to understand this but it is part of the healing process. The healing part can get nasty. In order to pass from any dis-ease you have to release. Self-hatred is the nastiest of all diseases. Recovery can be a lonely place…but you are never really alone.

Unfortunately, we have bought into the programming that we only learn through pain. Pain is only a catalyst from one point to the other. It’s like being stuck inside a well and not being able to get out. You see the light up above but you can’t climb out. It’s only when a rope from above is thrown down that you grab and can get out. That rope is faith. You cannot have faith and fear participating simultaneously. Fear is the act of separation. Fear isolates any kind of spiritual growth. It keeps the ego in business.  Forgiveness is the first step in reaching faith. And, let me explain that this “faith” has little to do with religion.  It is the embodiment of Christ Consciousness and awareness.

Who you are evolves from where you are right now at this very moment. Your thoughts, your wishes, hopes and dreams come from that place of now. Until this moment every negative thought has been a deception. Love yourself. You cannot love another if you can’t manage to love you with all your light while accepting the perfect imperfections.

The truth is that you are a perfect being that has no need for control. You are divine. You are God. You are love. And, most of all you are the only YOU that will ever exist. Everything you’ve done has brought you here. Choose joy, love and light. You will never know truth until you live authentically. There’s nothing in this world that cannot be attained when you are honest with YOU.

Where I’ve been,

what I’ve done,

is unimportant

to where I am right now.

Who I’ve become

from long ago

is irrelevant

to how I am today.

The lessons and experiences,

painful and degrading,

have taught me

the meaning of perseverance.

I am here now,

removing the veil of deception,

completely awake,

while empowering truth

in all I will ever become.

I am finally real.

I am that which is free.

I am the embodiment of perfection.

I am joy.

I am love.

I am light.

I am All.

Captivating Bodhi

Sun reclaiming sky

I opened my eyes

to the darkness

of solitude.

Compassion walked in,

Truth followed,

and together they laid

warming my chill,

embracing the vastness of silence.

I began whispering to Love,

awakening my spirit

to this bewitching freedom.

They engulfed me with light,

without questions,

welcoming the morning hours

as the sun reclaimed the sky.

Finally, I breathed with ease…

this is the life

I dreamed about a zillion moments

ago

in an older version of myself.

I am home…

I am.

Leisure of Time

I heard a voice through

the walls of night ask,

“What is your

contribution in this life…

today, tomorrow, always?”

So I went out
into the rain,
meeting Spirit,
in the middle
of a field,
embracing droplets
from the sky,
allowing the

clarifying,

washing,

diluting of
ideas, demands, and perception.

We met there in all of life,
in the joyous drenches,
releasing the past
and transporting me

back to childhood,
to what was momentous
in retrieving my innocence.

I heard once again,

“I will hold your hand

as you free all restraints

of ego and self-doubt.”

Then I realized…

we’ve met here before
in every moment of letting go,

accepting,

forgiving,

and loving.

And now, we engage in

the rain to erase

all adjectives,

prepositions,

and verbs

while only affirming

the pronoun-creation

of “I am.”

Declaration of My Power

I will not allow someone’s dictation

to become my own

as the voice in my head

in order to make themselves feel superior;

in order to fulfill their inferiority.

This is permitting the entrance

into my spirit,

the core of my essence and truth,

to rape me of all my will

so that they can feel better;

feel less empty

while carrying in them

the energy of me and all I really am.

I will not give another my power,

virtues, dreams, or thoughts

while allowing them to dictate

the decisions I make

and make me feel

that I have no voice,

whisper, or strength in my words.

I was given this body,

and this mind,

and this awesomeness,

and these thoughts

not to become a puppet

to anyone else

but to be the instrument

intended to find

the music in the world.

I am the notes,

the strokes, and the composition

that make me whole.

I am the oneness

of all through divinity

and another has no way

of robbing my humanity

unless I hand it over

willingly

with the belief that I am

not worth it…

because I AM.