Do Not Allow Anyone to Steal your Peace

Last week I came across someone who deeply hurt me years ago. The friendship ended and it was brutal. I had trusted and loved this person with all my heart. The relationship dissolved. There was so much loss that it took a year just to pull myself out of a dark hole. There was never closure and I was okay with that because I avoid confrontations. It took several years to really trust another woman like a sister. And even now…I am guarded at times.

The moment I saw her my immediate feeling was joy. I sent the love and compassion out with elation. I smiled most of the day. She did not see me. I was just happy to know she was doing so well. I know (and felt) that part of our parting ways was traumatic issues of abandonment from her past. I could not fill her needs and I had my own journey to travel and heal.

We aren’t here to fix anyone. We can extend a hand but we cannot be the bandaid or stitches for them. Because what happens is toxic. You cannot fill them up with what they are lacking.

But, I was truly grateful to have seen her from a distance.

Then I slept on it.

My compassionate heart had allowed ego to talk some senseless bull shit script. I woke the next morning beyond angry. I didn’t recognize myself. I felt nothing of the precious love from the prior day. There was definitely unresolved wounds there. And, boy, was I gonna dig deep to remove that last root! It’s been years. I take full responsibilities for my own downfall in that relationship. In all relationships!

I spent several days sending her extra love and forgiveness. I dedicated my meditation practice to her and released any false expectation that I felt I deserved. I had moved past closure years ago. I was able to just be without the chit chat or what would I have said to her had she seen me. I stopped the fantasy of a conversation that does not need to happen.

It worked. After five days I was back to feeling a sense of peace. The toxic energy moved on. That’s the same toxic energy that consumed us the last few years of our friendship.

I recognized the peace and calmness that transitioned when I was at a distance. And this returned with a deeper love and appreciation for her. I wish her well and sent all my love…from here.

If you find yourself returning to an old wound please accept it’s not healed. When you heal you don’t feel the hurt so deeply. You can detach from it and move on. If the hurt continues then it’s time to cut energetic cords and really send love. Hate never trumps love. Never. Love truly is the highest vibrational tool for healing.

Healing requires the utmost vulnerability of authenticity. It asks that you be honest. It whispers that you honor your soul. Write those letters and burn them. Send your good intentions and release them.

You got to do what is best for YOU. If this means breaking up with your old habits, programming and ideas…then let it be.

Love yourself enough to walk away from all that no longer serves you: a job, a relationship, or anything else. Feel what you feel and make no apology for it. But truly validate yourself. You deserve the love you give to everyone else.

I love you.

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Purpose is Fueled by Desires

What brings you joy? What is the one thing that stops time for you, and makes you come alive? What would you be doing if you had all the money in the world to pursue? What is the hobby or dream or talent that you wish you could do always…all day long?

For me it’s writing, especially about meeting people. It’s the words that come alive on the screen as I piece together a story…and the things I feel take shape in a way that transport me to a single moment in time.

It’s memories and how a touch, a smile or someone’s kind word transforms me. Those moments get to live in my computer or journals. They flow effortlessly out of me as I tend to them with sentences.

I’ve done many things in my life. I’ve worn many different hats. I’ve owned companies and have worked myself into pure exhaustion. I’ve gained and lost and expanded. The one thing that brings me back to life is writing every morning after my meditation practice. It’s in these times of pure conscious awareness/awakening that I can clearly see my purpose.

Then it’s gone. It leaves me quickly when life begins to reappear outside of my little Cosmic world.

The kids need me. The bills need tending. The laundry piles up. The house has to get clean. I have to get to work. The hubby needs something. And life happens. To each one of us, it’s one thing or another.

There is purpose in the mundane routine but it doesn’t make us come alive. Cleaning a toilet for me isn’t as inspiring as sharing a story or writing about speaking to my higher self and guidance. Folding laundry isn’t as fulfilling as speaking with someone who needs a cheerleading session in love or a lift to feel that they matter.

Pay attention to those things that make you smile and fuel your passion. One day (soon as I continue to super manifest) I will be collecting stories, full time, from different corners of the world.

Now you…go write down those things that you dream about and start working on making them real. Reality is always available once we place our purpose on our top priority list. And remember not to stop living in the now by obsessing about tomorrow or regretting yesterday. You have purpose in all you do, and you deserve to live a life that brings you endless love and passion.

I love you.

The Magic in You

I am rarely shocked by anything or anyone. There’s really not much that can shake me up and deeply put me in a state of deep word-less-ness. At the same token there are things that others say they are impossible and I claim them to be probable. It’s in that place of astonishing amazement that magic moves. It’s in the moments of mystical surprises that we evolve and surpass a place of bewilderment. Our passion fuels us and heightens our perception. What we know to be true changes constantly. Our desires and dreams move from where we are now into what we aspire for tomorrow.

Follow the heart’s desires. It knows more than the logical mind. Nothing exciting ever happens in the comfort of conformity and dullness. Venture into the unknown and trust that the Universe has your back at all times. I promise you that in the moment of surrendering you are transformed through faith and grace.

You got this! ~m.a.p.

I Crave

I want more time to chase fairies, play, paint, sing, chant, and dance. I want to connect with sweet souls, whether one-on-one or in a restaurant for five minutes. I don’t want to hear about negative world news. I don’t care for complaints cause they don’t inspire me. I want to know how you are surviving your journey, how you play this game called Life, and interconnect with others. I want to hear your dreams from past and future. Show me you! Show me your love through words, actions, and authentic truth. I want more sharing of healing arts, talks about consciousness, mystical experiences that have no logic, and laughter that makes my belly hurt and my cheeks burn. I want to know what aches and strengthens your soul. I crave for human touch, jokes, and play time. The sillier, the better. Yes…I want to continue sharing and caring beyond anything out there. Join me…let’s do it together and make sure we continue loving beyond words with the most openness of hearts.

Cause, darlings, that’s what we need more of….love, acceptance, and acknowledgment! We need to realign with Divinity while loving fully. This is how we raise consciousness. This is how we shift our world to better. This is how we fully show up…. ~m.a.p.

Spend Some Fun

I love road trips. I enjoy the long stretches of road while I drive. Something about being in a car, heading to an adventure, that fills me with joy. I go into a zone of pure meditation. Sometimes with music, other times in silence. I commune with the Universe in ways that seem magical. Time doesn’t really exist when I travel.

Except when you have a four year old in the car for hours and hours. Then it all becomes challenging. And it becomes another form of awareness.

We took off from North Carolina to Maryland yesterday afternoon. My husband has a graduation to attend and I get to visit one of my precious sons. We will be going to Washington DC this weekend as I’ve never been.

In one of those long stretches of jibber jabber, my husband begged Kali to sleep. It was way passed her bed time. She went silent for a few minutes and then asked him, “Daddy, can you spend some more fun with me?”

We laughed. He asked, “You mean can I spend more time with you?”

“No! Can you spend more fun with me now?”

Darlings!!!! When was the last time you spent some fun? What fun have you created lately? She finally went to sleep and as I drove a few more hours, before hubby took over, I thought about the ways I would spend some fun this weekend.

Make each moment count. You get to decide what’s joyous in your life.

I love you! This I know for sure. And it’s total fun!!!! ~m.a.p.