Tucking my hair behind my ears,
caressing my bangs over my eyes,
you checked in constant assurance
that I always heard and saw you.
Your hands guided my chin upward
so my eyes could share
the unspoken truth…
I was forever present with your one-ness.
Memories immortalize moments,
freezing scenes of tender-ness,
loving-ness and kind-ness
while all else now falls
in helpless-ness to a backdrop
of what is now real life.
Words echo,
I was everything to you
and I haven’t been ever since
to anyone else…
Oh, yes, there have been lovers
who crafted beautifully the arts
of rapture,
passion,
ecstasy,
gratification…
but the nothing-ness,
the ever so encompassing-ness
of allowing me
to love endlessly
without holding back
buried itself with you
long ago.
When I permit myself
the act of giving
I am returned with akward-ness–
a full disclosure
that you are not in them,
and I am not in me as well.
Luckily stories re-enact
in little sleepless nights
through visions
of what may never be again
but always live in fond-ness:
I was truly treasured
in whole-ness by you.