If you allow for it the world will move you every day to a place of complete openness. The hardest part is allowing the heart to stay open enough to receive the gifts. Some gifts will be painful and force you to grow for the betterment of your spiritual evolution. Others will contribute grace, adventure, and love to bring you closer into the web of humanity. Give yourself the permission this new year to experience all the wow’s and aha moments while staying in the present. They will transform you forever. Take risks, move beyond the comfort zone, laugh more, love deeper, share your life with strangers, truly forgive, don’t forget to breathe and enjoy the ride. Create your resolutions if you feel they will help you. Make your vision boards for guidance. Make space in your life for more joy.
I will not be creating unrealistic goals this year. I will not be putting myself with the stress of losing weight, running a marathon, finishing my novel or anything that I know will make me spin out of control because I cannot accomplish those tasks ASAP. I am allowing each moment to dictate what needs to be done. I am being mindful with my thoughts. No more expectations! They force Ego to dictate my mood. They also lead to extreme sense of failure and disappointments. Therefore, this new year I am just gonna surf it with a child-like sense of wonder and adventure. I will dance more under the stars, play with fairies in creeks, ride unicorns through the woods, and allow Divinity to surprise me with magic. Let’s see where that will take me!
I love you. Thank you for joining me here. I am forever grateful (and often shocked) by the kind and loving support.
There’s a natural endearing innocence to children. Their curiosity is breathtakingly admirable. We forget the wonders of an innocent young mind. There is a mesmerizing quality to their thoughts and imagination. If we could just hold on to that simplicity for the rest of our adult life! How extraordinary the journey would be if we just remained child-like.
Throughout the years, I have watched and witnessed my own children play, laugh, and create wonders from their imaginations. I have always allowed creativity to be a huge part of their lives. I encourage them to see the world in more dimensions than the visible one we are accustomed to live in. In the past few years I have tried to dismiss the rigid structure and ideas I had about my own life. It is always easier to preach and tell others to live a certain way, but hypocritical not to follow through in our own lives.
Today, after several busy weeks, I choose to sit for a little while and marvel at life. I will be a little girl staring out the window, witnessing the magic of the world. I will kick back and stare out as birds fly in and out of the yard, the trees sway to the wind, and the cars pass by in a distance. I choose to laugh, and possibly cry, as I do in days that I reflect and return to innocence. I will put my IPOD on dance shuffle and pretend I am a kid again with my round brush as a microphone, standing in front of an invisible audience and belt out to Donna Summer’s Last Dance. After all, being a kid is the best part of growing old. My body is ready for some fun.
I will not allow the negative chit chat of ego to dictate this day. I will not follow rules. I will not be an adult. That’s exhausting. It’s time to just let go for a little while. It’s time to stop the rigidity of it all.
Give yourself the privilege of returning to your innocence. Play like you mean it. Dance like if no one was watching. And, sing to your favorite tune! Life can’t get any sweeter than this…because your inner child is in charged.
For several days I’ve been in a fabulous retreat up the mountain in a place that feels like a tree house. I’ve laughed, cried, created, purged, shared, listened, expanded, and entertained. I’ve witnessed magical “aha moments,” heard stories of tragic losses, and participated in healing. This is what I know as mystical. I can be in the presence of others and learn something about myself through their mirror essence. Sometimes those things do not happen right there at the moment. They knock in the middle of the night, or even days later. But, I can hold space for someone and not take it in while having empathy and demonstrating them love. I can do this in a way that I extract love and understanding. This is what a retreat and gatherings offer.
Each one of these women has been magical. Spending a large portion of five days with them has brought up so much in my own desire to continue gathering and sharing. Each single one has enriched me these past few days with the element of JOY. I haven’t laughed so hard in a very long time. I haven’t felt so free in many years. I have had silly moments and enchanting ones that leave the state of wonder to experience those things that have no explanation.
We are all magnets. We attract that which we are at the moment of thought and conscious choices. I love my wacky friends…my misfits…my unicorn-riding folks who aren’t afraid of being themselves. I love the ones who say what they think, and think what they say with depth and laughter. We are a tribe. We love together. We cry together. We question our paths but, without judgment, pull and push each other down the rocky roads. It’s part of our humanness to attract the good. It’s all so good here. Right now it’s all that needs to be without the element of restriction or expectations. It’s just perfect to be part of something so ecstatic.
At this age I am not getting older…I am getting playful, deeper, and acquiring a no-bullshit attitude. Life is too short. Enjoy it. Live inJOY! Attract the best of the best who vibrate on your frequency. Yeah! I want nothing less. The best treat you can give yourself is being fully present in a diverse group of souls. You get to learn from each other what works and what doesn’t.
I remember when I was part of the retreat center and folks would come to do their retreats. I would speak to people who would mention that they weren’t getting anything. I would stay quiet and think, “Oh, but wait till you get home!” There is no timing to reach emotional breakthroughs. Sometimes you must really get out of yourself to feel the difference. And, other times you just have nothing that needs to come up. But, when it does, it becomes the catalyst to something greater than the self. If you allow for those shifts you can feel the gratitude later on in weeks ahead.
To those magical women who shared deeply this week…thank you. Thank you for allowing me to be part of your journey. Thank you for so much fun and bliss. I love you all!
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When I started this blog, Moments With Millie, I never imagined that a few short years later I would have the amount of love and support from so many people. I never saw my writing as anything but a means to detach from all that was going on in my journey here on earth. My life has changed drastically. At the time I was co-owner of a small retreat center/motel snuggled in the mountains of Western North Carolina. I am no longer managing that beautiful place. During the past few years I was gifted a husband and a baby girl, adding her to the other six children who call me “Mom.” Change is magical and it’s constantly evolving and teaching me to grow spiritually, emotionally and physically. It was time to give my page the face lift it deserved with all that has been emerging in my wonderful mystical journey.
There is more to come. I feel giddy with each shift and creation in the expansion of awareness in my travels here. There is a consistent evolution of soul through faith, grace, belief, and enchanting occurrences that appear when I let go of fear, anxiety and expectations. Freedom arrives and it’s non-descriptive. It’s all about trusting my authentic power. Everything I thought I knew is now null and void. I am starting from scratch walking on intuition and Source.
So…please grab a chair, sit and dive into my humor, stories, lessons, and magnificent experiences that make us all human. You are not alone in your own lessons. Thank you for stopping by and for the continuous support from all over the world. Good times ahead!
Part of our humanness is the need to hold on to things. There is a wonderful release in just allowing for life to happen without holding on to every event. Here are 8 magical ways of letting go of everything that is holding you back from living a life of joy:
1. Letting go of procrastination. The art of delaying is making a conscious decision to carry around stress and worry. Procrastination, in anything, causes tension in the body. As long as you know that you have that one thing to do, even though you are not accomplishing it, the mind is piggy backing it with stress. Let go of putting off something that can be done and cleared from your life. There is freedom in just doing it.
“You cannot escape the responsibility of tomorrow by evading it today.” ~ Abraham Lincoln
2. Letting go of negative thoughts. You are your thoughts. You get to decide what participates in your daily life. For each negative reflection there is a choice in filling it with positive affirmations. A negative thought pattern harms mind, body and spirit. Whatever negativity we induce in our heads turns into emotional turmoil that energetically forces us to sink into depression, addiction and anger. Pick a mantra to repeat during these times that you begin to slip into negativity. A simple shift in awareness makes a world of difference.
“It would be easy to become a victim of our circumstances and continue feeling sad, scared or angry; or instead, we could choose to deal with injustice humanely and break the chains of negative thoughts and energies, and not let ourselves sink into it.”~ Erin Gruwell
3. Letting go of multitasking. When you multitask you are not fully participating in what you are doing. You make mistakes, you feel fatigue and eventually your physical health suffers from the magnitude of doing so much at once. Multitasking shortens your attention span, increases your heart rate and causes a strain in your mind. Do one thing at a time. Create space for presence in each thing you do. Take time out to play. You are allowed to step back and take your time.
“You can do two things at once, but you can’t focus effectively on two things at once.” ~ Gary Keller
4. Letting go of control. Control is an illusion. When you let go of restrictions you get to participate in the magic of synchronicity. You begin to live by faith rather than what you think should happen. The tighter you hold on to things, the heavier they become to carry around. Life is to be lived not manipulated.
“Incredible change happens in your life when you decide to take control of what you do have power over instead of craving control over what you don’t.” ~ Steve Maraboli
5. Letting go of attachment to the past. You are here right now. Living in the past is an addiction and an excuse to not take responsibility for your life. It’s easier to fall into a victimization personality and play the blame game of what happened. You are responsible for now. Every lesson and experience has catapult you to this very moment. The choice is available of letting go what you cannot change.
“Everybody’s got a past. The past does not equal the future unless you live there.” ~ Tony Robbins
6. Letting go of a plan. “If you want to make God laugh, make a plan!” You can make goals and affirmations for the future. You get to create your life. Be available to change your mind when the universe starts redirecting you elsewhere. Do not be so stubborn with your agenda. It’s okay. Cut yourself some slack. Sometimes things happen to force us to look at something better.
“Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.” ~ Allen Saunders
7. Letting go of clutter. We hold on to things for sentimental value. We hold as reminders of the past and how far we’ve come. Your space is sacred. To have things all around causes a subconscious level of stress in our spiritual and emotional bodies. Start decluttering one room at a time. Start with your bedroom. This is the place where you rest and to have chaos around you can prevent sleep. Find simplicity and keep those things that bring you harmony.
“Out of clutter, find simplicity.”~ Albert Einstein
8. Letting go of letting go. Breathe mindfully and take time during the day to relax, even if for only five minutes. There is no reason to endure the heat of emotions in trying to let go of letting go. Allowing the spirit to breathe while inviting Divinity to come and sit for a while. You can do this through prayer, meditation, or contemplation. Remember that letting go doesn’t mean that you are giving up. It just means that you are accepting the miracles and mysticism of life. Enjoy the journey.
“Don’t go through life; grow through life.” ~ Eric Butterworth
We are the sum of our experiences and stories. Allow yourself the ability to surrender and let Divinity work its magic. You are always loved!
I have in my possession a few things older than me: my grandmother’s Italian espresso maker, her wedding dishes from Germany, an original Geisha Japanese doll from a century ago, and photo slides of times before I was even conceived. I am sure there are other items in my care that are older than my human 47 years. But, the oldest thing that I have is my soul. It is ageless. It has arrived here willingly accepting the ignorant, stubborn, difficult, and silliness of my humanness to travel in this incarnation. This soul has decided to witness the manipulations, rejections, and lessons of my personality while sitting back and waiting for me to acknowledge truth. This soul has guided me in moments that I felt were my last, and in other moments that have birthed me with new knowledge and awareness. Because of this I know my soul is ageless, timeless and priceless.
Whenever I look at my hands they feel like the oldest things I own because of the wear and tear they have endured. They have touched, caressed, and loved deeply. But, still they aren’t the oldest things in me. My soul knows secrets that go beyond my age and experiences. When I allow the openness to lead the way, magic is created. That’s intuition! It happens through synchronicity and serendipity…or is it a prearranged destiny that I am finally aligning to it?
We arrive into this world with amnesia. We forget the reason we are here and what needs to be done. We travel unconscious and erratic while waiting for someone to explain the meaning of our lives. When we begin to honor the authenticity of spirit the soul starts to show us truth. We begin to meet the teachers along the way. Events, circumstances and the depth of life proceed to show us the reason for our existence. It doesn’t happen quickly. It arrives through small moments, conversations, listening and tasting the simple things around us. It comes through the whispers of prayer, meditation and creativity.
Whether you believe in past lives, reincarnation, or other metaphysical subjects, there is an understanding that our souls are much older than our bodies. I know things that make no sense to me. I have no clue where the information has arrived into my brain. And, because I sometimes have little filtering the words shoot out before I can analyze and retrieve them. This is when I witness firsthand the vastness of my soul, the ageless miracle of spirit. The unknown makes its presence known and connects to another soul. It is mystical!
Have you thought about the age of your soul: the weight of its knowledge; the size of its information; the connections to those around you; the lessons it wants to teach you? They are beautiful and awed-stricken thoughts. If, and when, we let go of the idea that we have control, the soul flourishes. It blossoms and appreciates the awareness of ego finally letting go. It teaches you faith, belief, hope, and grace. Your soul, my soul, every soul, is here to learn, love, and experience life to the fullest. It comes in with obliviousness and slowly starts to remember its purpose through the whispers of the heart. We begin to remember what we were programmed to forget through society. Surrender to your yearning. Listen closely. Be present. Follow your intuition. It is there that the soul smiles and claims its presence while guiding you to the greatness of your evolution.
“Put your ear down close to your soul and listen hard.” ~ Anne Sexton
When asked about the common subjects people talk to me about I always say “Love and Spirit.” People will share their love and stories without filter. It’s a given! They will unload information in a heart beat. The second subject is always along the lines of spiritual deprivation. Folks are in need of magic, mysticism, miracles, and faith. They want to know that there are others out there with the same curiosity and open-conscious level of understanding. They want to know that this is just not all of it…you know, the concept of living just to pay bills. Because, frankly, it’s not!
I am blessed to know (and my list continues to grow) hundreds of spiritual people. They are from all walks of life: Christians, Buddhists, Jews, Muslims, and even non-denominational. I also know many religious folks who come across as spiritual but in truth they are all mind and no heart. To me spirituality is having a compassionate heart tied to a faith in something greater than ourselves that is non-violent and non-judgmental. If you are judging, criticizing and point all sorts of fingers to another while reciting God’s name, well darling, you aren’t spiritual. You are something else. Unfortunately there are a lot of religions based on the mastery of manipulation and the heart has to be taken out of the equation. You cannot love and hate at the same time. Impossible!
A few friends showed up this weekend from Florida and Georgia. Ah…the beauty of entertaining like-minded souls is in the allowance. We were able to openly discuss so many subjects of the conscious mind. And the thing that kept coming up was spiritual deprivation and starvation. We are not connecting one on one with others. I know they are millions feeling this massive shift of awareness, however, due to the overwhelming negativity of the pointing-fingers syndrome, no one discusses their faith with anyone. No one wants to be ridiculed. No one wants to die. The deprivation grows larger and before you know we are all scattered and left to fend for ourselves and spirit.
Spirituality is a lonely path. My steps cannot be walked by you and vice versa. We can, however, compare the paths. We can discuss the different ways we come into prayer, contemplation and meditation. We can share experiences that are beyond this realm. We can go deep into conversations about stars, planets, and cosmic energy. We can trust in each other when someone says, “Yeah, I was back there talking to the fairies and then Stevie, the unicorn, brought me out of the forest.” Just because you haven’t experienced it doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist. I haven’t experienced homelessness but I sure believe in it. I haven’t experienced war but I now it’s there. So, these are folks that want more. They crave for spiritual knowledge. They eat, sleep, watch and read all sorts of information trying to rationalize or enrich their faith. For centuries religions have done this. It’s part of our DNA, we must grow into the unknown. It’s pretty sad that in today’s world we can still be deprived by the simplest forms of human needs: mind, body and spirit.
I don’t have answers on how to find more spiritual connections. I really haven’t a clue. At least ten times a week I get a message from someone asking for spiritual retreats, meet-ups, or just comments on wanting connections with Spirit. I can only tell you that at times what you are looking into others is right inside of you if you just sit long enough to listen. There are some rough days I get up at 3AM angry as a hungry bear. Anger is not an emotion that suits me. It actually lowers every part of my cellular composition so I try real hard to just avoid the emotion. But, when it grabs a hold of me in the middle of the night, shaking me violently I know I must get to the nearest dark room, sit my butt down and disconnect from it. I am determined to raise my vibration to the highest form of love and dispel that emotion. I need to quiet the ego bitchiness and center myself to what matters. It’s in those moments that Spirit visits me. It’s in those precious minutes that the universe cradles me with unbelievable forms of awareness through love. And, it’s also in those times that forgiveness arrives and I can let go of all that is causing me such turmoil and chaos. I walk away feeling like me. I am still a spiritual being having a human experience. I am choosing to make it less dense with emotional baggage.
You have the answers to all your spiritual questions. You carry with you the spiritual knowledge to change and feed and enhance your life through divine guidance. You are all there is. Sure it’s awesome to share with others. Heck yeah! It’s comforting to know you aren’t bat-ass crazy and the looney farm has a room with your name on it waiting for you to check yourself in. That’s always wonderful to acknowledge. Likes attract likes. If you want more spiritually grounded individuals in your life you have to become one yourself without the fear of being scrutinized. You also have to look around your circle and realize when you have to let go of toxic energy. You have to put yourself in the arms of respect and self-worth. What good will it do you to find spiritual folks and then return to a place that destroys the yummy energy? Go love you. Go believe in yourself. Go be spiritual through the forest, by the shoreline, over the desert, on a mountain top. Just BE! You got this!
I get home from work and begin making dinner when my 20-year-old daughter informs me that there is a leak in the living room. I go into the living room and she explains that while waiting for her laundry to be done that she was sitting watching television when two drops of water fell from the ceiling. I ask her if maybe it was our Great Dane drooling on her arm. She laughs and says, “No, Mom! The dog was on the floor asleep. You seriously think I wouldn’t notice it was the dog?”
“Okay, turn on the lights and show me where you were sitting.” I stand in the middle of the room searching for water stains. I see nothing on the ceiling. It’s been raining non-stop and I don’t see any sign of leaking anywhere, thank God.
“Mom, I swear! It was two drops right here on my arm.” She extends her arm as if hours later the water marks were still tattooed on her skin.
I walk away, stop and turn. “Baby, you know angels are known to shed tears that fall from the heavens.” I say this completely in truth without sarcasm. I mean…I said it without an ounce of logical thought processing. To me it was a rational explanation.
She looks at me…wearing a look of confusion and sarcasm and says, “Mom! You do know I am not six anymore?”
I turn around and go back to making dinner. As I said the comment I didn’t realize how truly juvenile and exaggerated it sounded. I was in my moment! I gave an answer without filtering it…without truly thinking about how ridiculous it sounded because, to be honest, I believe in the magic of angels. I could have said it was the unicorn urinating as it was flying above her. I would not have been surprised if that came out of my mouth as well. I live in a constant state of awesomeness while things happen that have no logical explanation. And, in that world I don’t think before I speak!
We become what we believe. We believe in the power of endless possibilities and therefore anything is possible in the world. Why not angel tears? Why not a unicorn kiss? Why not fairy dust sliding down her arm? Why not? In a world governed by rationale and preconceived notions why not believe in the unbelievable? Why are children the only ones who believe? Perhaps because they haven’t been taught to believe otherwise. You don’t need proof…you just need to believe. Do not let anyone tell you it cannot be done. Things do manifest from the most unusual of places just to get our attention. It’s magical, mystical and pure enchantment!
in this space of magic
laugh and dance
of our spirits
united in this fantastic realm.
join me here
in this celestial sacredness.
Never allow your wounds,
to sway you into
someone you are not.
I love that you visit
and stay a while
to share in this world
you and me
free to be
what we long ago
decided to become.
It is only when you
don’t search for love
capable of loving
without the judgments
This is all there is
in this alchemistic
world created by Spirit.