Find Joy in the Midst of Chaos

Hello, darlings. How are you all doing? It’s some intense times. I’ve had to truly allow the “feels” to come and go. I feel all sorts of emotions at different times of the day depending on what I’m engaging and entertaining.

I ask that you be diligent in your mindfulness and presence. Reach out to others during the stress.

What I do know is that these times are about connection, especially with your immediate family. It’s about returning to simpler times. And we will have plenty of it coming up as we may get quarantined.

Love one another!

Get your house projects done if you can. Finish writing your book. Create that piece of art work you’ve put off. Get your Christmas greeting cards filled out. Purge your closets. Figure out how to make toilet paper out of recycle stuff. Do whatever you need to do to stay mindful and present with your thoughts.

But for the love all that is good please find humor. Laugh. Dance. Do your yummilicious shifting. No more judging others. No more hate.

Anxiety will rise. Fear can visit often. It’s all okay. You truly aren’t alone. There is shi(f)t of unknowns right now.

I am grateful for each one of you. I love you.

New Professional Website

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I am so happy to announce the launching of my professional website:

www.sacredjourneyinward.com

It’s been in the works for over a year. It was stopped for a while. It got momentum for sometime…and then it was on hold again. I had to determine exactly what I wanted and I couldn’t. I twisted and turned with it at night. I was hesitant and could not figure out exactly why.

It was fear. I didn’t really want to be seen. I felt raw with each piece of writing. And, yet, I blog daily and share so much of my insights. But, somehow, the website made it all official. It was all ego chit-chat that didn’t belong. It did need to be tended to and addressed.

This year has been one of the toughest years in almost a decade. It has transformed me spiritually, physically and emotionally. It has been one that has triggered old traumas and I’ve sat with them to heal the wounds. I find it amazing what a year can do to a growing and expanding willing soul.

In order for me to help anyone I had to do the work myself. That’s how the magic happens, don’t you think? How can I tend to other people’s stories if I don’t address my own? How can I sit in sacred space with someone else if I don’t do the same in the darkness of my soul?

So here I am…and I am elated. I am relieved for finishing a long project. I will be blogging over there too. I am going to be closing down this website in a few months as I have chosen to create several books from these entries. One will be a poetry book with spiritual muses. The other a daily inspirational meditation book. Who knows what else will transpire in the process.

You can still find me on Sacred Journey Facebook page. On Instagram map_sacredjourney.  Also on Twitter (just opened an account) map_sacredjourney as well. New email is sacredjourneyinward@gmail.com. I love to hear from you!

Stay tune. I am so happy you are on this journey with me. Thank you for the patience, love and ongoing support. I am deeply touched by all of you. I love you.

 

Forgive Yourself

Almost six years ago I had a near death experience. When I woke the next day in the hospital the neurologist spoke to me and told me that stress can kill us. I knew this. But in spite of knowing something we don’t always practice it. She said, “You don’t know what you don’t know until you do!” She had witnessed grown men who had been in the military turn comatose after the shock. She had witnessed completely healthy women have heart attacks from broken hearts and then have strokes. At that moment I realized I had been given a gift. And this gift was to be mindful of how I carried the weight of the world on me. I don’t have to fix every single thing or person. I don’t have to even try. I just need to continue trusting that I get to be where I am suppose to be daily and I serve humanity in the simplest forms. I get to forgive myself when I want to reach and be there for another but I’m too exhausted. Or when I don’t call or communicate to loved ones as much as I should. I get to honor my mind, body and spirit without the guilt I used to have. Then…only then…can I continue living a life that’s a delicious blessing.

Forgive yourself for what you think others expect from you. Forgive yourself for not wanting to over-extend your energy. Be mindful that you are only required to show up and love. You take care of your immediate family in the best way you can. The rest of the world will continue living. Be gentle with you. Let go of all that past programming. You’ve got this.

Staying in the Now

Saturday I visited one of my elderly clients at his facility. He was on his bed with his eyes closed. I sat next to him and waited. He opened up his eyes and smiled. He doesn’t know who I am. He has dementia. However, he never questions who I may be. He never asks. He is forever present.

This man continues to be a teacher. I refer to him as Yoda. A few months ago, when the state appointed him to us to be his guardian representative, I went to his house to get a few things before everything would be disbursed and sold. He had already been placed in a facility. So I went to his apartment and gathered personal items.
There were no signs of a past life. He is a minimalist and everything was very neat. He was a photographer by profession and had many cameras but no personal pictures. He never married or had children. He has no one. Leaving his place puzzled me. It was as if he rented space in his life. He lived in the present moment.
And…he continues to live presently. When I sit with him he never shares of his past, as if he had none. He doesn’t ask of his future, as if it’s irrelevant. We talk about the weather or food. Every so often I ask about photography and I am reminded he is still taking mental pictures of the present moment. He is available to see light and a world only seen through a small lens. He doesn’t care what’s beyond the view.
I brought him a box of chocolates for Christmas. He opened it up and stared at it, carefully observing the shapes. He was grateful but I was more grateful in noticing the moments of his discovery. His beautiful green eyes lit up with each bite.
I want that. I want more of what he embodies. I want to stay present without questioning the future. I want to stay here without reliving my personal stories. Through his gentleness I am recharged. I am given hope that we can all stay in the now.
We get to decide how we show up. We willingly get to participate on this journey however we feel we must. So, I must show up like that…completely immerse in what is happening this moment without rushing it. It’s like taking a photograph and capturing that second forever. Now!

Sacredness of Ceremonies

There is sacredness in ceremonies, in gathering with others to bless and heal. Circles, fire, chanting, prayers, meditations, cleansing and other rituals are there to maintain a sense of creation through divinity. When two or more gather there is manifesting on all levels and realms. It’s mystical!

The Sacredness of Ceremonies allows me to ground myself beyond words. Rituals and gatherings raise my frequency to more love and infinite abundance. Judgment disappears. Vulnerability unfolds. When I moved to these mountains years ago I dreamed of a tribe that would support me and my heart. It was slow to arrive since I kept growing spiritually and was disconnected from many who were not on the same journey. It has taken some time but in the last few years I keep meeting the most intuitive and amazing people. I am so blessed to have found so many folks during this time, and it continues to grow with like-minded individuals who are connected to their spiritual truths. These are teachers, students, and true guides from all walks of life. My soul is filled with joy and humility because what I’ve asked for continues to expand. I am touched by stories, experiences and wisdom from so many sages.

And I am loved. That love is constantly being paid forward. It’s purified through the acceptance and knowing that I am receiving messages through others and their stories. I am in awed of what appears when I no longer try to control the world around me.

If you don’t have a tribe please find a way to create one. Take time to connect with others. Social media is excellent for this. Find groups and interact. Your soul isn’t meant to be alone. If you live far from others there are ways to connect through technology.

Be blessed and continue to manifest your desires. You grow through each little wish made to the heavens. You are magical. I love you. ~m.a.p.

Sharing Yourself

Someone recently asked me if I was ever afraid of sharing too much. I asked her to repeat the question. I actually didn’t understand it. “Sharing too much…being afraid of THAT? The sharing?”

She said, “Yes. People are scary. They use your stuff. They judge….” She had a list compiled of the fears and how she would be hurt.

I’m not afraid of sharing. I’m actually afraid of living a life without truly sharing, or holding back. I’m afraid of not saying the things I feel that might make a difference to me and another. I’m afraid of letting someone believe they are alone in their sorrow. I’m afraid of others who don’t say what they mean and hurt deeply because of it. But, I am not afraid of my vulnerability. This is what holds my heart in its place. My openness is a superpower to myself. I have learned to properly (and sometimes without filter) overcome adversities because of it.

We fear the things we don’t understand. We fear what we can’t perceive or process from our own experiences. I, for one, tend to withdraw from someone who has hurt me and shut down. I won’t communicate. When I’m done, I am done. But, sweethearts, don’t be afraid to share from your heart…ever. Those who can’t handle it don’t deserve you. It’s truly a gift in weening out the ones who don’t align with you.

Your presence in this world is the gift of you. Do not allow fear to stump your light or your love. Be mindful. Give. Share. Love openly and wholeheartedly. You will know who is worth your time or not. ~m.a.p.