Happy 2015!


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A new year is upon us again!  2014 brought with it tremendous growth, challenges, and transformation.  I am looking forward to 2015 with giddiness and excitement.  Any way you dissect it a year in a life isn’t that much (365 days, 52 weeks, or 12 months).  It flies by in a blink of an eye.  I am always surprised at the acceleration.  The older I get the faster it comes and goes.  But, this New Year I vow to be more present. This New Year I promise to stick with having no expectations.

This past year I had two words I chose to live by: grace and adventure.  I was challenged with both. Grace kicked my butt. It showed me what true divinity and faith are composed of in me. Grace didn’t just gently take me by the hand…it knocked me down so I had the opportunity to learn the forgiveness and compassion I was lacking in myself. Phew…so glad the lessons didn’t land me in the hospital…oh, wait! They did and that was just on the first month of the year. That’s where the other word comes in: adventure!

Adventure has been a roller coaster ride this year. I have learned to remove all plans and just live day by day. Nothing like having a new baby to clear up the true meaning of a quest. It’s been a beautiful ride into memory lane. Motherhood has always been a question mark for me. I have repeatedly asked myself if I have done the best possible job with my six kids. Now I am seeing things in a mature and compassionate scene. We all do the best we can under our capacities after all we are the best versions of ourselves. I’ve been provided with, yet, another little one. The universe has entrusted me with another chance to love a child…but this one, it turns out, is showing me the adventure of a lifetime. She’s taking me by the hand every day and exposing me to things I overlooked in my twenties. She’s divine light allowing me to revisit those things that I questioned and accept that I have done exactly what I needed to do. This little angel is the best gift I could have imagined. She is turning my question mark on motherhood into a huge exclamation mark of joy! Grace, Faith and Hope are always present holding us together. There’s no mistake that she turns one year old on January 1st. We start with a beautiful reminder that this is definitely a new year. 

If you allow for it the world will move you every day to a place of complete openness. The hardest part is allowing the heart to stay open enough to receive the gifts. Some gifts will be painful and force you to grow for the betterment of your spiritual evolution. Others will contribute grace, adventure, and love to bring you closer into the web of humanity. Give yourself the permission this new year to experience all the wow’s and aha moments while staying in the present. They will transform you forever. Take risks, move beyond the comfort zone, laugh more, love deeper, share your life with strangers, truly forgive, don’t forget to breathe and enjoy the ride. Create your resolutions. Make your vision boards. Make space in your life for more joy. I will not be choosing two words this year. I will not be putting myself with the stress of losing weight, finally sewing that dress, or anything that I know will make me spin out of control because I cannot accomplish those tasks ASAP. I am allowing each moment to dictate what needs to be done. I am being realistic with my thoughts. No more expectations! They force Ego to dictate my mood.

Happy New Year! 2015 will be full of serendipitous moments.  Make peace with the past and pay attention to the signs ahead. Let your heart guide you into the unknown. Let these next 12 months woo you with excitement~!  Mucho love, my friends….mucho everything that’s good!

Life is about courage and going into the unknown.” – The Secret Life of Walter Mitty

Peeling out of 2014

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Last night, close to midnight, the office doorbell rang. I had been sleeping for a couple of hours and the noise immediately felt like glass breaking all over me. I actually woke feeling the pressure of something falling on my body. Matt was up and answered the door and instantly I felt a surge of negative energy consume the room just down the hall. He came and asked if I would check the man in. I answered, “Nooooo. No way!” And when he told the guy that it was too late and we were closed the man blew cigarette smoke into the room and left pissed off. From the bed I heard the loud muffler of his truck and then the peeling out the drive way onto the main road. I knew my decision was correct! I felt horrible for a long time. It took lots of meditation, prayer and sacred visualization to remove the dark stagnant vibration left from just that moment. The heavy presence of darkness, sadness, and oppression lingered with intensity. I felt sick just from a few seconds of interaction, and it wasn’t even with me. But, we are always protected. These events confirm the depth of awareness and allowance in listening to Divine guidance.   I begin to witness how this magical place has been evolving.  We are no longer a motel on a country road.  We are heading to the goal that we’ve intended since buying this place: to be a retreat only place of peace, healing and rest.

Through sleepless hours ahead I began to think of 2014. Some years have that same negative stagnation. Some are just awesome years. This year for me has been about death, birth, transformation, loss, awareness, grief, awakening, letting go, and a lot more that I had thought was addressed years ago. I am ready, with giddiness, to welcome 2015. I am peeling out of this year, hopefully while not leaving anger and darkness behind me, but with an awareness that everything has appeared for growth. I am peeling out with rebirth and acceptance for the beautiful challenges and events that are behind us.

Yes…I am ready. Yessssss! Absolutely freaking….YES! Please join me in that excitement for a great upcoming year….