I traveled a thousand miles
To be by your side
In the witching hours
Of cosmic journeying.
I watched you sleep
Cradling a body pillow
Tightly against your chest,
You breathing heavily
Penetrating
The covers,
But you couldn’t see me
Invisibly standing there….
So,
I returned to my side
Of the world
Guided by the light
Of the full moon,
Gliding and sliding
Through dimensions
Searching for my bed
Then awakening
To your smell wrapped Around my hands.
I love you…Millie
Let your spirit fill me
With delicate expressions,
Dictating a romantic ballad,
Holding on to adjectives
Then…
Slipping from your tongue
In sweet rhythm
Cascading into my ears
As water folding over us.
Let your hands hold
Verbs and nouns,
Us as pronouns,
Beginning and ending
Tracing each line and space
Of my body
Cautiously placing
Each moment into silhouettes of pauses
And
Shading the imagination with
Tension, intervals and length.
Be my melody,
Reciting a sonnet, haiku, free verse
Until
The final closure,
An exclamation to end all words
With…
a…
deep…
sigh!
I love you…Millie
We fear succeeding a lot greater than fearing failure. We have been programmed in the expectation of failure. When it happens, we immediately tell ourselves, “Well I knew that was going to happen.” Those words are the driving force into failure. Succeeding requires that we step into the unknown. Inside of you are all the answers. Continue to co-create your reality. You get to manifest the life you desire!
There’s a vastness,
hollowness,
waiting to be discovered,
uncovered through lack of substance,
control or restrictions.
It is in this space
that one’s bulk reaches
the core
of who and what we are
while not feeling the need
to fill it constantly.
I used to wait
for a miracle of another
to create a fullness
that was never meant to be an external
or internal source of dimension.
And, in this spaciousness
the universe lies completely
sheltered by spirit,
engulfed by expansion of cosmic energy.
I am alone, but not of loneliness.
I am empty, but not of vacancy.
I am light, but not over-exposed.
The range of all is infinite
as we can all meet any time
through the everything of life.
Let go of the illusion,
diminish the fear,
and travel through the light of love.
A touch from you opens the portal.
A word ignites our immortality.
A look exchanges the energy to all humanity.
We are here together. We are always connected.
Be mindful that you,
me, and them are the spheres of divinity
in this dance of life.
I love you,
Millie
The sound of your voice
carries magical gifts
that chill my nerve endings,
erecting every particle
and I dissolve within seconds
of each syllable released.
I shiver,
dancing to a mystery
of what will be
sometime,
somewhere,
somehow,
as you look deep within me.
I melt with each thought
of you,
diffusing in your hands
as they
trace,
create,
explore
the corners of my flesh.
I dance to your eyes,
as they search for my truth,
my releases and secrets,
waiting for permission
to kiss,
absorb,
extract,
love all of me
as you take nectar
from my spirit.
In the end
it is the journey of silence,
smiles,
and gestures
that bring me back
to being infinite
with you…
intertwine in me.
Love is a privilege given to all
to take
or not.
Your call this morning
yanked me out of sweet sleep.
Your first words,
“I love you. I miss you”
woke me like a bucket of cold water
splattered
against my warm body…
I stopped you,
halting all of your jabbing
slurring into the morning light.
You needed to be heard
and when you finished
the mumble jumble of puzzled words
I hung up to wash you off my spirit.
I stood in a hot steaming shower,
placed my face against the cold tile
as the water scolded me
and I stared at the smoke rising
realizing the difference between us:
I think in colors, pretty shapes, and music.
You think in darkness, straight lines and equations.
I need you to release the colors I placed
in your heart a while ago.
Let me have my love back.
I can’t breathe without that return.
My colors obviously cannot light
the gloom you continue to carry,
but I will always love you
more than the privilege deserves.
There,
beyond the doubt
exists a you
ready to live in freedom.
Stand on the edge,
take a deep breath
and jump.
The unknown will catch you
and Spirit will
provide wings
so you can soar
over all the fear
manifested
without the allowance
of Divinity to move you.
And over there…
beyond the horizon
is the world
of Love
ready to embrace you
forever
without the restrictions:
“I can’t,”
“I don’t,”
“I won’t”….
Moments with Millie 