Release it to the Cosmos

(Google image since I could not take a picture of the man.)

This morning on my way to take the kids to camp, I watched a young man, half-naked, on the side of the interstate yelling at the trees and sky. It was right before 7AM. My windows were down and as I passed him I heard, “F*cK You!” as his fists were pointing upward.

I had this sensation of stopping, but I had the kids. And I am not part of this man’s story. A piece of me marveled at the ability to shout out to the Heavens, that raw vulnerability (even if he was strung out on something) to say exactly what he was feeling.

Most of us don’t.

We bury the pain or the anger. We bulldoze over it. We expect things will change and get angry when they don’t. We demand, beg, plead and complain about it.

Whenever I’ve had enough, I climb the tallest mountain around here early enough not to bump into anyone. When I get to the top, I sit on the largest boulder. The cows on that field surround me. Then I yell to the top of my lungs. I don’t stop till I feel the energy move through me. I sit for a bit. I may cry. I may write. I may just close my eyes and allow the sensations of nature embody me. I become still, smelling the earth, tasting the wind, hearing my heart beat.

I watched this man today and recognized it is time for another trip up the mountain. Those releases are powerful. I had a special pillow for one of my children when she was small so that she could hit it and yell. It was just a way for her to stabilize her little emotional body. Sometimes it was exactly what she needed. Other times it made it worst. We always found a happy medium.

This man needed this today. He had enough (or not enough). Who knows!

Today, allow yourself to feel what needs to move through you. Lock yourself in the car and yell. Scream in a pillow. Allow the energy to move through you and don’t filter it, avoid it, or reject it. Our bodies are transitioning with all the collective madness. If you can’t give yourself permission to let it out, your physical body begins to absorb it all in toxic ways. Self-care is also about releasing the things that haunt you.

I love you! Go love yourself as well!

Millie

A New Level of Spirituality

A lot gets mentioned about economic and material poverty in our world. But because of these issues and events we, as human beings, are coming out of an era of spiritual poverty. People are searching for meaning, awakening, and evolving to fulfill the absence that money once occupied. There is no shopping, eating out, purchasing expensive homes and cars, or traveling to fill the void inside. Therefore, we find that spiritual quest is on a rise these days.

Two years ago we were put in a global time out. Millions of souls have transitioned in the last twenty-four months. Wars have begun and others have ended. The pandemic of fear took over our world like the plague. We’ve learned so much about tenacity, unity, division, faith, belief, manipulation and still we continue searching for a truth that is individual like our fingerprints.

Folks are recognizing that separation from self is not living an authentic life. It is actually sleep walking through it. People are enriching their lives with a faithful quest for Divinity. We are trailblazing into new frontiers of conscious shifters. Between a massive Exodus and a deep awareness of time being precious, we are searching more than ever for our place in the world… a new world we’ve never experienced beforehand.

In the past we have looked and searched for meaning, purpose, and aspiration from any source while filling ourselves with technology, drugs, alcohol, food, etc. People now seem to be questioning their choices more carefully. Spiritual richness comes from acceptance and allowing humanity to join together. It is about witnessing the old paradigms and pushing through what hasn’t worked. Strangers become friends because we see God looking through their eyes. Judgment is no longer dictating our decisions. We are rising into unity.

When we step away from the media, the fear-based headlines, we begin to witness the truth of our power. We are miraculous beings in full creation at all times. We recognize that there no borders in reality, only those drawn on a map; that money is a piece of paper without real value except what we give it, and governments have as much authority as we give them. And I am understand that it’s not as easy as black or white. We live in a flux of endless man-made gray areas that govern and determine our freedom.

But, there is God. There is a omnipotence source that is also always available to us. We live in a Matrix-like simulation and we get to unplug at any given time to see the real world. It’s up to each of us to disengage from the masses and find our moral compass.

I remember once reading a quote from Stan Dale, the founder of the Human Awareness Institute: “If God wanted to hide, He would hide in human beings because that’s the last place we would think to look.” I know this is now changing. We have been forced to take accountability for our divinity.

I feel we are searching more within ourselves and others in this new era. I believe we are looking through a child’s eyes, a stranger’s smile, or a friend’s words and finding God giving us a personal message. I believe in synchronicity, serendipity, and faith that we are all becoming more conscious of the thin thread that ties us together. I believe in Quantum physics, science of the mind, and the chemistry of God. I am continuously exploring pushing consciousness to the next level. Because of this, I know in my heart, that we are entering spiritual richness and leaving the spiritual poverty as a lesson in our human path. The footprints of selfishness, isolation, addiction, and destruction will be a distant memory in the near future. And, this is what opens my heart and allows me to look forward to deeper spiritual growth. This is also what keeps me reaching out and sharing stories of compassion and kindness even when they might seem mundane.

I may seem naive and gullible to many, for believing in this new utopia, but I have seen it in dreams, alternate timelines, and cosmic travels. I have sat in ceremony with divine plant medicine and experienced visions that have shown me the evolution of humanity. Whether it may happen, or not, does not matter. It all starts with believing and placing the vibration of love out to Gaia and it’s habitants.

An opened heart to the world brings peace, love and unity for all. I am so grateful for what lies ahead. It may get a little bumpy before we experience this new world, but I am here to assist through my own vibrational shifts. I am deeply blessed that I am not alone on this journey. Thank you for joining me!

I love you….Millie

Today is the Big Day for Our Book

Are you an Empath or Know One???

We have collectively gone through the greatest empathy exercise of all time.  As an empath, you may be feeling more “feels” than ever before and are seeking tools to manage them. We have been there, and U Empath You is our answer to that call.

U Empath You is a collection of stories by extraordinary sensitives who have navigated significant and sometimes life-altering transformations. These empaths have at times wobbled along the way or resisted their inner feelings and then decided to pursue their knowing and face their trials with courage, grace, and humor. Their stories will ease your journey with guidance and inspiration so you can make the empowering changes you envision for your life.

The need for energy hygiene has expanded and intensified as an unprecedented number of people awaken in their empathic nature. Our desire is to assist our fellow empaths in utilizing their gifts and shift from “Help me, this is too much” to “I am showing up as my bright, shiny self!”

It’s finally here and available for you to purchase today!!!! Go to Amazon and get your copy on Kindle for $.99. This price is only for two days!!!! This book is going to give you the assurance that you aren’t alone with all those feelings you have. You are magnificent. And, there are so many souls just like you. In this book you will find twenty authors who feel the same, including myself. I am so glad we are living in these times: you and me together!!!!

I love you,

Millie

Be Kind to You

Be soft with your spirit. Be gentle with your essence. Rid yourself from the negative self-talk. You become everything you say that you are or that you are not. We are born every day, every minute, every second. We are here on borrowed time. Make it lovingly serene with your heart so that you can present your soul lovingly to another. This struggle is all bullshit at the end of the day. It doesn’t matter what you did or haven’t done. This moment, wasted reading this, or contemplating what hasn’t been scratched off your To-Do List is all irrelevant.


I have spent so much time of my life punishing myself for not being one way or another, for not fitting in, for not being enough. And for what? I came here to live not sabotage myself. No one can ever be harder on me than myself. I will be 54 years old this weekend. I earned every one of those gray hairs, wrinkles and life experiences. I have loved, lost, rejoiced, and grown. I have earned a massive medal of honor for surviving. You too! We all have. This second part of my life is about truly embracing me. I am softer and kinder with the totality of my life and those around me. I have finally reached a point of acceptance.


Love is all we are here to do. Hold a friend’s hand in need. Hug your lover as if it was the last time. Kiss those kids tightly. Smile at a stranger. Open doors for an elderly person. Compliment a cashier. Delete the toxic folks out of your life. If they don’t raise you then they have taught you something. It’s time to move on. Use your energy wisely. My God, just get out of your head and lovingly give to another who needs to feel that the illusion of loneliness is not drowning their existence. It matters. It all matters to that one human who is struggling with life. Stop the craziness of self-doubt and anxiety because there is no way you leave this life alive. So… live for yourself with honor, love, and compassion. You don’t own this blue planet alone. I am here. You are here. Let’s be here together in peace and harmony. We got this!

I love you dearly,

Millie

Remembrance

Something woke again

after a long sleep of doubts,

anger, hurt and questions

that buried me in an open tomb.

I had forgotten my power,

the thoughts that co-create

with the Universal aid of intentions;

those same delicious frequencies

that magically take me here and there.

I had forgotten,

waking up with such joy,

that I skipped out of my room

while bones cracked and stretched

reminding me to slow down.

I don’t care.  This is the meaning of living.

This is the ebb of sorrow and joy

taking it all and pasting it back together

without giving up. 

It’s easier to give in,

give out, and forget.  No more!

I have been sleeping in such darkness

for too long and allowing no one

to turn on the light.

Clarity arrives with rest and prayer. 

I hear the ringing of truth in one ear.

I see the element of surprise ahead.

I taste the juices of excitement.

I smell the sweetness of success

for all that I have put out into the openness.

I’ve returned.

I am home in me again.

It’s been a long time…too long.

The heart echoes softly, “Welcome back!”

I love you…Millie

Our Deepest Longing


It is our deepest longing to find answers to why we exist. What is the meaning of it all? Why are we here? And what is the reason to keep searching?


We have questions and we search for answers. Over and over. The answers are rarely found. The more awaken you are the deeper the desire for those answers. They are permitted to come in and accepted as they align with our truth. This is why my answers might not resonate with yours. Questions have little answers through quests. They come through in the moments of stillness and silence. Whether they are spiritual questions or not. Our only job is to be present (fully available) for the answers to arrive. Often times we don’t ask the right questions because when the answers arrive they don’t match our expectations. Ask and it is given so be careful what you ask. You might not want it.


Whatever you are wanting make clear declarations. Don’t settle. The universe has a sense of humor. It will utilize our wishy washy emotional state to show us what we might fear or not want. Stay in your truth.


The question you need to ask yourself when you aren’t receiving answers is: What am I resisting?


Lately, this has been happening to me. I’m surfing through. I don’t go back and I won’t go forward. All I have is this moment and at times it is truly hard to handle. But the questions are always there because I know better. I am allowing for the mysteries to unfold. It will come together.


These aren’t easy times but they are full of manifesting desires quickly. So make sure you ask for what you really want without confusion. And keep asking the hard questions. Keep searching for purpose. Ride the waves and allow for each breath to be your guide. Your higher self knows it all. It is waiting for you to sit back, shut up and listen!

You are Part Butterfly

I read somewhere this week that butterflies can’t see their own wings. They have no idea how magnificent and beautiful they are. They don’t know that they hold magic in their colorful wings.

Imagine that?!

Maybe, just maybe, you are part butterfly. You aren’t able to see your beauty or how magnificently miraculous you are. It’s all in you and you just can’t access it, but others around you see you. They see the divinity in you… moving along, exchanging energy, loving life, and feeling that yummilicious compassion that ties us together.

It’s okay! You are part butterfly. That’s it!!!
So, continue spreading your wings. Keep loving yourself. Continue showing up.

We see you. I see you. You are exquisite, graceful, and created in the image of Source!

I love you!

Millie

Cassandra Complex

I have three women in my life who feel unheard. I hear from all three, often, about no one listening to them. I also say that it’s the “Cassandra Complex or Syndrome.” If you never heard of the Cassandra Complex let me explain. 

Cassandra, in Greek mythology, was the daughter of Priam. He was the king who reigned over Troy when the Greeks attacked it. Cassandra was a gorgeous woman who attracted the attention of the god Apollo who was the son of Zeus. Apollo gave Cassandra the gift of prophecy as a love gift. However, Cassandra refused his attentions and it angered him. So, he cursed her to always prophesy the truth but with the awareness that no one would believe what she saw. No matter what Cassandra saw in the future nobody paid attention to her. This curse became the source of pain and frustration for the rest of Cassandra’s life. 

In psychology the “Cassandra Complex” is a term describing those people who, in spite of emotional and physical effects, experience ongoing humiliation and are never taken seriously. Imagine the child who cried “wolf” too many times. They are in constant avoidance and annoyance of those around them leaving them in a manic state of depression for not being heard. 

Now, we’ve all experienced some kind of Cassandra phenomenon in our lives. We aren’t always taken seriously, or we are taken for granted. How often in relationships do our partners stop listening to what we have to say? Or as parents, we are ignored? Or, in a job, they keep passing you by without giving you the respect you deserve?

The Cassandra syndrome is one that plays with the person’s self-worth and ability to be heard. We are moved from how others see us, feel us, and love us. We require the sacredness of space and connections. When we are ignored or not taken seriously (for things we see or feel) it takes a toll to the self-esteem. It begins to deteriorate the ability to communicate openly. This leads to anger, rage, frustration, and emotional neglect. 

The question is, how do we make someone in our lives take notice and listen to what we say? How can we command that respect and attention? 

Whisper! This is what I do when I am done being ignored. I just whisper, talk less or lower my voice. I recognize that those around aren’t really listening. Plus, I am really great at compartmentalizing these emotions and just stop giving those folks the attention they also require. When I am done, I am done!

In my last relationship I was rarely heard. I would say something and months later would be told that I never said it. It would then border on gaslighting. And I began to shut down and believe that I had nothing worthwhile to share with him. Why speak when I wasn’t being heard? It leaves a huge trauma of feeling insignificant. One day I addressed it and he said, “Well, if you had something worthwhile listening to, I would totally pay attention!” 

From there on I whispered. Or just never shared anything. If it was something of importance, I would write it. This is passive aggressive. I know! However, if you want to get someone’s attention it is important to lower the ego and act wisely. How much time are we spending trying to get others to hear us who do not deserve that attention? 

It’s truly humorous that even though I have had relationships in my life that have not taken the time to listen to me or my stories, I make a living as a story tender and intuitive facilitator.

I am deeply sorry if you have been ignored. I hope and trust you know better than to shut down and not speak up when you need to. It’s no way to live. That feeling of emptiness and hollowness is also a sign that not everyone needs your undivided attention. Be gentle and tender with yourself. Love yourself enough to recognize it isn’t about you. As empaths it is hard not to let it affect our emotional, physical and spiritual bodies.  These are the times that require our truths to be heard. You do not have a curse. You have life experiences that have paired you with folks who have required you to heal wounds.

There is a great article about this on: https://www.adultaspergerschat.com/2020/09/recovery-from-cassandra-syndrome-tips.html. It explains how to recover from the Cassandra syndrome. I love this last suggestion:

“Recovery from Cassandra Syndrome is a gradual, ongoing process. The memories of the emotional neglect that you have experienced will never disappear completely. This can make life seem difficult at times. But, there are steps you can take to cope with the residual symptoms and reduce your anxiety and distress. Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy [CBT] is a type of psychotherapy that has consistently been found to be the most effective treatment for emotional trauma, both in the short-term and the long-term. “Grief counseling” is also high effective. And don’t forget the NT (neurotypical spouses) support groups that are available online.”

I hear you. I see you. I love you,
Millie

Healing through Unknowingness

I spent a large part of my life hiding. Recently, after a healing session with an incredible soul, I recognized the patterns and programming. I shared with an old friend who immediately said, “Oh honey, you’ve been hiding all your life. I’m so sorry!”

Her sorry was genuine and my tears flowed out again. She saw me. Really saw the trail of bullshit left behind by a Narcissistic mother. And I’ve been working on cutting cords for so long. I tend to listen to the voices of the past when I try to lead my children in the now. I don’t want to be like my mother. I second guess every single major decision in spite of what my heart and intuition show me.

In spite of all my deep awareness and knowing I am not exempt from all my human lessons and challenges. I am always on the trail of mending.

Healing is about release. It’s surrendering to the now while letting go of what has kept you captive. This can be physical, emotional or spiritual. I don’t believe in examining and re-examining the past because that story is no longer there. We create new ones but at some point ancestral wounds need to be cut.

Sometimes we don’t really know what’s inside no matter how much we work on ourselves. It takes an outsider to guide your spirit on a new journey and quest.

Here is what I continue to learn daily: unhealed people hurt through their unknowing-ness. They don’t recognize they are hurting anyone, especially a child. As I continue to feel seen the vulnerability is heighten. I am no longer a little chubby scared girl feeling judged by the world. I am no longer a 20 something woman walking on eggshells afraid of what others think of me.

The healing sticks when we become aware of how we allow toxic energy from others. Those folks continue to show up to remind us of our growth. I am blessed they continue to show me how to set healthy boundaries.

I hope you can also see them and send them love. You don’t have to participate in their dramas. I see you. I honor you.

I love you! ❤️

Millie