Divine in You

The day will come when you won’t be looking for faith outside of you. When you stop looking for God in temples and religion. You will notice the Divine staring back from the reflection in the mirror. You will see it smiling at you in a homeless person or a loved one taking his last breath. You will find Source in your children as they laugh out loud. You will feel spirit in the kiss from your mate. You will finally recognize our connections and how important it is to be kind and compassionate to everyone. Even when they don’t accept it. You will find the silence and ability to walk away. This will be when you have reach the loving understanding of your purpose through unconditional love. I see you. I feel you. I know the God in you. And in me. I love you.

Love Goes and Returns

I met this young woman today at French Broad Chocolate Lounge in Asheville. She began to share her story in between four of us sharing a lavender creme brûlée, a chocolate cake, ice cream and brownies. It was a diabetic dream. But what was better was her sharing of how her life has changed…or made a giant circle.

She has reconnected with her high school boyfriend who was much older. Now, after getting divorced and having two kids, she’s available. He’s never had another serious relationship. He’s never been married.

“How does something like this happen? How was he waiting? Did he secretly hope your marriage failed?” I asked fascinated while laughing.

“Nope, he just didn’t fall in love ever again. He was the love of my life. I have been the love of his. It was bad timing when I was in college…!” She went into intimate intricate yummy in’s and out’s of condensing ten years.

“And here you are! He just declared his love. He’s picking up right where his heart left off.” I patted my heart in complete delight for the utter harlequin romance of it all.

We continued to feed our souls, but the true sweetness was in Sara’s story. It was the love that was declared and shared. It was the delicate reminders of how time doesn’t really exist and you can return to the beginning over and over.

It takes pure vulnerability to stay open to the magic of what may be without forcing things. It requires courage to follow the heart and quiet the mind. This is love at its depth of being.

Life has a way of bringing in the most amazing events when you discard the expectation. Love goes and returns when it’s meant to appear. And this afternoon her energy expressed it all beyond words. It was the most magnificent delicatessen in that chocolate factory.

~m.a.p.

Connections

“The first time

you looked at me

I saw myself

looking through

another time

returning back

to you again.”

I witnessed a man and a woman in a book store looking at one another through bookshelves. She smiled, put her head down pretending to look at the titles, and tucked her hair behind her ear. He browsed through the books still keeping an eye on her and smiling. They did this for a few minutes. And then for one moment they stared into each other. That one moment was infinite. Their stories unfolded right there with a bookshelf holding this timeline apart. They went their ways. I sat there replaying their intimacy.

If we allow others to come into this realm…every one who tries to…what would our world look like? I mean, the loves…the ones that we push away because of timing and responsibility. I encounter many of these stories without a word being exchanged. I tend to them, noting the endless possibilities of their silence. Their connection is beyond this world. And I can see it’s all about timing.

We are all connected. Whenever we choose to engage in this acceptance we may find that magic is truly fate in disguise. ~m.a.p.

Visitation

I woke at 3 or so this morning. I went outside and sat on my wet deck, as it rained throughout the night. I sat there listening to the silence of morning until a little bird landed near me. I found it odd that a bird was up that early. She had one leg. She hopped closer and stood there. I wasn’t alone in my thoughts. I had a visitor and one with a tremendous handicapped that allowed me to come out of my own funk. She had adapted to waking early in order to eat since she was slower. I moved a bit to get comfortable and it startled her…she flew away. I whispered for her to return. Eventually she did and hopped back towards me. She began to nibble at the blueberries that had fallen on the ground. So…for some sweet while it was me and the bird and the universe waking to another day. It was my heart being flung open with her little visitation. It was my thoughts taking a backseat from doubt, sadness, and the large scope of humanness. It was a lot, and nothingness, in a half hour (or whatever time it was). I wanted to continue sitting in the wetness, in my quiet safety net, in her presence as she hopped from bush to bush and back. I needed to go inside to meditate in comfort. 

I am given beautiful lessons through simple awareness. We all have these small windows of love and spirituality. Most people don’t stop long enough to notice but they are there. We are provided with the loveliest of visitors to show up in our world. Stay open. Continue to invite the extraordinary to gift you with messages. 

As I was getting my little girl in the car, hours later, the bird landed on the bush next to the car. I smiled, thanked her, blew a kiss…and she flew away.  Until next time, birdie…until next time!

Honor Yourself

I disappear.

When I’ve been hurt that’s what I do. I cut all ties, take my losses and move on. I refuse to be where I’m no longer loved. Unfortunately, patterns of dependency need extremes. It doesn’t make it right. It doesn’t make it wrong. People are driven by habits. They don’t let go when they can find their ego being right.

This doesn’t mean I don’t mourn. It doesn’t mean I don’t revisit lovers or friendships or relatives in my thoughts and dreams. It just means that I need to honor my feelings deeply. I need to love from afar. I need to continue loving them from over here instead of over there.

Relationships don’t break without reason. At least not for me. It takes a while. I am non-confrontational. I will avoid arguments. I will avoid judgments. I will avoid negativity. I don’t tolerate name calling or demoralizing behavior. When I finish something it is because I’ve tried other ways to reason and speak calmly. When I have tried for some time and nothing changes I am done. It might be a character default because at times it leaves the other party speechless and deeply hurt. People need closure and I am not kind with that. I feel if they look back they may be able to trace where and how things became disconnected. That would also mean they have to take some accountability for their actions.

This is not for everyone. Most people need the finality with reasoning. I find this alone. There are times in the middle of the night that I wake yearning for those folks. I go into meditation. I forgive them and myself. I visit them in the best of light…when things were yummy and wonderful. I don’t focus on the crap. The hurt disappears. We are human. I hurt them. They hurt me. We move on. To hold on to the past is a waste of precious time now. The presence of sacredness is vital for me to live in harmony.

Who do you need to forgive? Is it yourself? Whomever it is please do it. Write them a letter and burn it. Write it for you. Make your peace and stop carrying old wounds of yesterday. Anger, hurt, jealousy, hate…they are destructive aspects that are birthed from a lower frequency. Your mind controls them not the other way around.

Every person in your life has been a teacher. You’ve learned so much from the good and the bad. Accept this life as one giant classroom of spiritual growth. Keep graduating. Keep growing and expanding your consciousness.

Sending love to all. Let go. Keep letting go and return to a harmonious state of being by accepting and living in your authentic truth. Honor that!!!

Recognize Your Love

Do you want to have more love in your life? Really? If you think the love is OUT THERE you are not living with love. Look in the mirror…that’s the purest form of love in your life. Love is staring back. DO NOT let another year come and go while waiting for the “great love of your life” to walk into your presence. Embrace the one in you. You are here for a purpose. You are here to create, embrace and give. If you are expecting someone else to do this for you…you are missing out on your life’s number one purpose.

You are exquisite, beautifully designed, gorgeously detailed to the core…God don’t make junk! You create the joy and love in you. Please feel it.

I keep walking around places and I see others declaring their unworthiness, their unlovableness, and all their lack of ness. You are all there is. Your body is an outfit, a costume of sorts, it’s not who you are. You are the BEing who resides in it waiting for the light of self awareness to sparkle and share.

I wish you could see what I see in you. I wish for one second, even the homeless man sitting on the corner of a building wrapped in a broken blanket, would see that his greatness is inside waiting for HIM to call on his own loveness and oneness.

Love is always always always the answer. I don’t care what the question is…the answer will always be LOVE. Have a delightfully beautiful day. I LOVE YOU!!!!!

Overly Woo-Woo Alert

Okay, darlings, are you feeling the expansion? Sweats, heart racing, nasty headaches, nausea and some other body spasms?

The last 30 hours or so have been a programming of ups and downs full of lots of emotions. You aren’t going crazy. It’s not the holidays (although retrograde and this season intensify emotions at times). It’s some yummy intense energy in the esoteric realm pushing awareness and waking the body up.

And how do we grow? Through discomfort most of the time. It’s unfortunate but a true observation.

Allow for these discomforts to show up and move on. Don’t overdo it. Be gentle with your body. Be kind to your thoughts. Stop beating yourself up for what you’ve done or don’t do. It’s truly remarkable to be in your spiritual body and recognize that this is not real. You are a spectator of your movies and drama. Do not second guess yourself.

Please stay in the moment. Be present. Don’t let the energies overwhelm you with anxiety.

If you can’t sleep then read or meditate. Don’t punish yourself visiting the past or future. If you can’t be in your skin then try to take a walk in nature. Don’t avoid the feelings but don’t entertain them into harming you. This is not for you to try and control.

Allow. Detect. Reject. And make peace.

Now go hug your spirit. It’s working really really really hard this week trying to stay in this human chaos. The universe is always rigged in your favor so manifest what you desire.

I love you. Love yourself as well. Feel the blessings!