Memorial Day

One of the places I looked forward to seeing in Washington DC was the Vietnam Memorial Wall. I walked it crying. My husband took this picture and I realize I was in a moment of grief trying to walk through the crowd. It was too much. Thousands of names that fought for our country. It was especially touching on this Memorial Day Weekend. I am not a person really bothered by death as I feel it’s a transition we will all reach. But, to feel the energy there was overwhelming to me. It was suffocating. Even now as I write this my heart aches. I couldn’t go see the other memorials. I know from the beginning till the end of time there will be wars. And I will never truly understand it. The beautiful statue was one that pulled my heart strings.

I pray that one day in the future our world can find peace and we will never have to bury thousands of men and women in the name of war.

Thank you to all the men and women who have courageously served this great nation. You are all heroes who triumph over the worst of circumstances. You truly show us what bravery, dignity and integrity stand for. ~m.a.p.

Faith in Humanity

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I am finishing my coffee and getting ready to head to work this morning. As I was making my way into the kitchen something powerful hit me: The words, “I am not giving up my faith in humanity.” I wasn’t even thinking about anything of importance. I began brewing my second cup of java and while standing in the middle of the kitchen the words echo once again and tears began to cloud my vision. I understand why these words link together. I am seeing so much negativity in social media…the snippets of news I hear along the day…the comments made by friends and family. I hear from one ear the necessary things and discard the rest. BUT, I am not influenced by what anger and fear have to say. I believe in the human spirit. I believe in humanity. I truly believe that things escalate when we continue to shed light into the darkness.
Think about how France and the USA are now embracing each other in ways that for years they have not done so. I remember visiting Paris years ago and not being welcomed kindly when I spoke in English…but when I switched to Spanish I was served with friendliness. Think about the amount of people these issues have touched. Think about how we are fighting one cause together. I don’t like the word “fighting” but for those who are military or completely determined to beat the shit out of someone else the word brings masculinity. I get it. Things break. Our hearts get fractured from all the violence and crimes. And then, that fracturing begins to slowly heal. Oh my God, when does it stop, right? Well, I am still NOT giving up my faith in HUMANITY. The moment we lose faith the enemy wins. That simple!
I know I am a bit naïve. Okay, maybe too naïve, but I have to believe in the core of my spirit that things happen to bring humanity back on track. We have to stop the freaking labels. We have to diminish the bigotry and racism. We are not black, white, brown, yellow or pink. We are not our religions: Christian, Jewish, Muslim or whatever. We are breathing beings trying to find our way in this planet. We are roommates trying to set boundaries on what the other person needs to feel comfortable. AND even roommates have turmoil in their living arrangements because we are all different: personalities, beliefs, culture, etc.
I am not giving up on humanity. I am going to go to work to read countless files of folks who are mentally ill, traumatized, and purely in extreme need of help. You want perspective…walk into a place that has lost hope. Walk into a village that has little water. Walk into a place that has thousands of folks living in filth. Walk into the lives of children without parents. Walk into a war zone of folks fighting all in the name of their God. It’s senseless, yes! It’s disgusting, yes! It’s truly demoralizing and it tears into your fears of what another human is capable of doing with hatred. Alienation, hatred and hostility do not disappear alone. These emotions begin to dissolve and suppress when we shine compassion and love to them. I don’t have the freaking answers to why these horrific acts of humanity happen. I don’t truly understand all the hatred. I don’t get the reason we hold on to issues without forgiving. But I have to promise my spirit that until my last breath I will not give up on humanity because I believe in us and the power of community. I believe in a higher power that brings us together. I believe in you. Together we can commit to bringing love and aid to others…not my judging or rejecting what’s happening…or criticizing another’s faith. We bring it home into our spirits by truly empathizing and realizing that what happens over there is also part of our stories. May you have a beautiful day…and may you realize that you have the power to change the world one heart at a time!

Agree to Disagree

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It’s taken most of this lifetime

to finally learn

not to judge myself based on

anyone else’s reasoning,

insanity, judgments,

ideals, and moral compass.

I will never live up to you

if I am going to be labeled,

scrutinized and manipulated.

I have my own ideas, thoughts, reasoning,

rationales that run from here

and end pass your comfort zone.

Please don’t hate me,

rejecting and discarding my patience

as I happily tolerate our differences.

It’s perfectly great that I can love you

in spite of not believing in your faith,

or siding with your political views,

or your twisted ideas on sexuality

and how “some people” are an abomination

to this earth. You are entitled to these thoughts

and that’s more than fine for you

but I am entrusted with my very own core beliefs.

I have collected these hypothesis

through my journey, gathering what works for me

in a basket of compassion even to the slightest judgment

coming at me like a double-edge sword.

I’m a big girl now feeling rather comfy

with myself and how this new world has welcomed me

with open arms (even when you label me as insane or abnormal).

I can’t stand intolerance, bigotry, ignorance, discrimination,

stupidity, and faithless hatred while you stand for pseudo Christianity,

holding your beliefs up with a rigid Bible-belt and hypocritical suspenders.

I can say that loving you is a privilege regardless of our differences…

but to you it is the in-differences that challenge the feelings in your heart.

It would be a dull world if we all thought the same.

The beauty of these crevices that indent every part of our humanity

is the agreements in disagreeing and watching the world evolve

through all diversity.  It’s a lovely truth:

to love one another without expecting to morph into one belief,

one idea, one thought, and one experience.

Ultimately the light that guides us is the one which lifts us to Spirit.

Let’s agree on that one point.

We are the totality of Divinity

regardless of your hesitations

to accept that which scares us to death.

We are all forms of faith, grace, truth…and Love.

In the end love should be what we can agree upon collectively!