Be clear with your intentions. You will manifest everything you desire and the things you don’t. Sometimes it takes a little longer because it might not be what you need to be doing.
Many months ago, almost a year, I wanted a job working as a foster care recruiter. I took a lead-teacher position in the organization just to get my feet in the door. It was an excruciating, exhausting job. I took care of 8 babies daily and my body was screaming with constant pain. I finally left it over a week ago to create space for my spiritual practice and see clients.
Yesterday I was offered THAT position. I stood back after reading the email and just sat with it. I heard Spirit ask, “Well, here you have it. How badly do you still want to play it safely or will you trust yourself, and us, to align with your soul’s purpose? You are meant to touch others in a different manner while still helping children!”
I heard it clearly. I sat in sacred silence. I thanked the whisper. I thanked God. I felt the clarity in answering the email, “Thank you so much for considering me but I will be passing on this at this time….”
I trust the magic of Source. I trust me. It’s daunting to depend on myself after so long instead of a weekly paycheck. But this I know: I am always taken care of. I trust that my business as a love cheerleader, story tender, and writer will grow. I trust that I will help others navigate their journey. We all need a little help. We all need to feel supported.
Trust, darlings. Listen to that little voice that sends you messages. It never does you wrong. Ego will battle with it and if you are open to release and let go…you will float in the arms of trust with faith.
Several years ago I had a huge pond. On the yuckiest and muckiest part of the pond a lotus garden sprung up every year. Out of the mud a flower of enlightened beauty would emerge.
It was through the area of pure abandonment that this would appear in the most vibrant pinks and purples near the willow tree that waited patiently for its birth.
There is divineness in allowing things to emerge from struggle and yuckiness. It’s in the precious battle through darkness that we evolve. It’s a sacred union of truly releasing the ego to divinity.
The lotus doesn’t ask permission to bloom. It just grows. And all the pods around it watch the flower come alive. The buds begin to rise and when they open up it is as lovely as watching a birth.
That’s what we are here to do. Just allow and accept the divine in you to emerge from yuckiness. Allow your soul to free itself from judgment and criticism. Accept all parts of you that make you magnificent.
You are not alone. Be the lotus that rises from the muck and change the world with your radiance.
I recently had a conversation with a friend about someone who has returned into her life from the past. She is angry with herself for allowing him to return. I asked her if she had learned anything new this time around and she had this aha moment over the phone. I could feel her wheels turning. I asked her if perhaps this person returning was to finalize the closure she needed…to see how much she’s grown emotionally and spiritually. When we revisit the past, with the same dramatic people (continuous actors who keep repeating same scenarios) we get to decide if we are learning or if we are settling?
You are not required to entertain every person who comes into your life, whether they are from the past or new! You get to decide if you want grief or magic. If you want love or despair. If you want peace or chaos.
I, for one, surround myself with magicians. Those days of allowing others who were dependent on me fixing them are over. I now attract the mystics, the creators, the lighthouses and the lovers of life.
I’ve been pretty good at reading people by how they show up and see me. If I happen to rub them in a negative light I began to question the reflection. I try to hold up love. Unfortunately, I am not always fairies and butterflies. I am raw and sarcastic. I’m often quick to forgive and forget (to then experience pain all over again). So when someone doesn’t like me or is rude to me I see pain. I see mine and theirs.
I see my own scars. I witness my own issues with worth. I can feel the chubby little Millie show up on a corner of the scene. And that is always important too. We must acknowledge our inner child.
But, I have also grown and learned that I can be too much for people. I am too airy-fairy or too eccentric or too whatever. Often times it is that I am too delusional! People will look and search in others from their perspective. So I don’t take things personally like I did years ago.
Once I recognize them I can love them from afar. I don’t have to make them like me. It’s not my job. They aren’t ready for a fairy.
What others think of you is not your business…for real. We cannot be everything to everyone. You are responsible for living your truth. You are here to connect and love while doing no harm. The folks we meet are teachers. They show us our character. They emphasize our strengths and weaknesses.
What always remains…should always stay the same…is how you see yourself. See yourself as the miracle that you are.
Go out there today and be a lighthouse, darling. I love you.