Several years ago I had a huge pond. On the yuckiest and muckiest part of the pond a lotus garden sprung up every year. Out of the mud a flower of enlightened beauty would emerge.
It was through the area of pure abandonment that this would appear in the most vibrant pinks and purples near the willow tree that waited patiently for its birth.
There is divineness in allowing things to emerge from struggle and yuckiness. It’s in the precious battle through darkness that we evolve. It’s a sacred union of truly releasing the ego to divinity.
The lotus doesn’t ask permission to bloom. It just grows. And all the pods around it watch the flower come alive. The buds begin to rise and when they open up it is as lovely as watching a birth.
That’s what we are here to do. Just allow and accept the divine in you to emerge from yuckiness. Allow your soul to free itself from judgment and criticism. Accept all parts of you that make you magnificent.
You are not alone. Be the lotus that rises from the muck and change the world with your radiance.
I recently had a conversation with a friend about someone who has returned into her life from the past. She is angry with herself for allowing him to return. I asked her if she had learned anything new this time around and she had this aha moment over the phone. I could feel her wheels turning. I asked her if perhaps this person returning was to finalize the closure she needed…to see how much she’s grown emotionally and spiritually. When we revisit the past, with the same dramatic people (continuous actors who keep repeating same scenarios) we get to decide if we are learning or if we are settling?
You are not required to entertain every person who comes into your life, whether they are from the past or new! You get to decide if you want grief or magic. If you want love or despair. If you want peace or chaos.
I, for one, surround myself with magicians. Those days of allowing others who were dependent on me fixing them are over. I now attract the mystics, the creators, the lighthouses and the lovers of life.
I’ve been pretty good at reading people by how they show up and see me. If I happen to rub them in a negative light I began to question the reflection. I try to hold up love. Unfortunately, I am not always fairies and butterflies. I am raw and sarcastic. I’m often quick to forgive and forget (to then experience pain all over again). So when someone doesn’t like me or is rude to me I see pain. I see mine and theirs.
I see my own scars. I witness my own issues with worth. I can feel the chubby little Millie show up on a corner of the scene. And that is always important too. We must acknowledge our inner child.
But, I have also grown and learned that I can be too much for people. I am too airy-fairy or too eccentric or too whatever. Often times it is that I am too delusional! People will look and search in others from their perspective. So I don’t take things personally like I did years ago.
Once I recognize them I can love them from afar. I don’t have to make them like me. It’s not my job. They aren’t ready for a fairy.
What others think of you is not your business…for real. We cannot be everything to everyone. You are responsible for living your truth. You are here to connect and love while doing no harm. The folks we meet are teachers. They show us our character. They emphasize our strengths and weaknesses.
What always remains…should always stay the same…is how you see yourself. See yourself as the miracle that you are.
Go out there today and be a lighthouse, darling. I love you.
The news of Anthony Bourdain’s death left me speechless this morning. My son had worked with him in the past filming shows in New York City. He shared how great the man was, witty, kind and low key. I know that right now, in this particular time in history, the intensity of conscious shifting/awakening is hard to comprehend. It’s difficult to navigate at times. Emotions are flared and magnified by esoteric changes. It’s freaking chaotic. Not that depression and suicides haven’t been part of our lives in the past, but at this moment it’s super intensified.
Two weeks ago while driving to Baltimore and Washington DC, I zoned out into a meditative state. I could see the grid lines in the horizon, in the landscape, over mountains. I was seeing the collapsing of something powerful and the density of energy that wasn’t this apparent years ago. We are in the midst of merging timelines, darlings! Those flux emotions you keep feeling and lethargic body times are not to be ignored. So, I ask that you reach out when you feel the sadness overcome you. I beg you to seek help because bottling old traumas or new ones isn’t going to raise your frequency to where you need to be as we move through this time.
What can we expect? I feel we will see a lot more until something in us completely awakens. We are spiritual beings navigating in a human form. Let’s get real here…we tend to forget this shit because we are sucked into a system that has been selling untruth. We have the power to change everything.
The imbalance of earth and its folks has to find meaning other than the superficial acts and hatred motives. It’s not about religion. This isn’t a God thing. This isn’t a political one. It isn’t a human thing either. It is a matter/energy one. We can’t fix the world through anger and sadness. We can only do it through love. And I know that I get a lot of eye rolls when I mention “Love” but it is the highest form of vibration. True love for the self and others forces all other frequencies to take backseat.
I’m here. You are here. Let’s be here together. This is a tribe. We are all in this together. Our job here is to truly keep pulling one another out of the slums, out of the pits of hell when we take a detour, and into light.
Get out there and be in nature. Pray. Meditate. Eat right. Correct your alignment with the past by making full loving intentions for your soul and how you want to live. And, for heaven’s sake please see a professional when it gets too much. I love you. I believe in you. Ultimately you must believe in yourself!
A few years ago for Christmas a dear friend gifted me an amazing book by Mark Nepo: ‘The Book of Awakening.’ It’s a daily meditation guide. The pages are worn and marked. The book now looks like it’s been put through a dryer. Every time I pick it up I find something else that I’ve missed the last three years. Words have a way of popping out just when they need to be acknowledged.
“There are many reasons to be kind, but perhaps none is as compelling as the spiritual fact that it is what we do. It is how the inner organ of being keeps pumping. Spiders sting. Wolves howl. Ants build small hills that no one sees. And human beings lift each other, no matter the consequences. Even when other beings sting.”
I cried when I read this. I’ve cried a bunch today. It’s been intense! But it’s only a day. I get it. When I started it was as if someone let the stopper out of the tub and I drained from it’s excess gasping for something that was unavailable now. It was powerful. And cathartic! I am able to move through it and recognize so many lessons.
Have we forgotten in these present times of “what we do?” Have we lost our way to understand that we are all on different spiritual paths and forms of evolving? Have we deviated from truth because of ideas, convictions and beliefs without once remembering that we must be kind to each other in order to make any form of transformation?
The hardest part of being an empath, or sensitive person, is the constant bombardment of others’ emotions. Even when I am not partaking in their issues, I feel the energy deep in the core of me. I am made to be kind. You are made for kindness. We cannot deviate from our authenticity. This is who we are. We learn how not to be kind, consciously or unintentionally…because we are born with love and kindness in our cells. That’s the starting point to each of us. That’s who we are. That’s what we come here to express to others. That is the web and fabric of our Unity.
Let’s try to return to THAT. Let’s….please…because the alternative really really really sucks! Tonight I am sending prayers to several folks really struggling in so many ways. I want to truly be present with them in spirit, in love, and in kindness.
I love you.