The Ego is a Lunatic

Why do we sometimes allow spirituality to take a backseat? Why do we ignore the soul’s desire to spend quiet time alone? We start placing others’ needs before our very own.

I had forgotten what it was to live in that hectic pace until recently. I have to remember not to compromise my spiritual needs over the physical ones. I have to remind myself that the discomfort of certain things lately is all a matter of perception. Nothing is real but how I observe and own it.

I feel that the reason we forget to take time to contemplate is that we think it isn’t necessary every day. We can perhaps squeeze that time in the shower, driving, or right before sleeping. Spiritual nurturing requires time and effort just like physical work, career, family catering and entertainment.

Spirituality is the center of the soul. When we avoid those moments of centering, we are doing a huge injustice to ourselves. We become imbalanced.

What can possibly require us to avoid quiet time? Avoidance. Fear.

Fear of the unknown, anxiety, and the ego fighting the endless battle of narcissism create scenarios that don’t really exist. Finding a place, making a small space, or even just stopping for five minutes allows the spirit to center itself. Nothing is that important that we cannot meet the needs of our spirit to be still. NOTHING! Believe me that when the soul asks, you need to listen.

I have forgotten this with so much going on. The constant irritation of trying to make more time has reminded me to breathe and meditate right now. There is no appointment. Things cannot be postponed. My physical body has been calling for it through exhaustion. I am not ignoring it. I cannot handle the pain and move forward to stillness through avoidance. I know my stubbornness gets in the way of my spiritual growth like a mosquito attacking me in every direction. It’s incredible how something so small and annoying can get the blood boiling. But just like a mosquito, I can choose to slap it away. Silence, meditation, prayer, hiking, yoga…whatever you can find to escape the ego, is necessary for balance and harmony. Ego will keep you busy with shit that is unimportant. I promise. Shut it down. The soul needs to recharge and find stillness. It’s not just during sleep. Spirit needs to find connection with the universe during waking hours as well.

May you find a space that can bring you to inner peace. Pausing throughout the day (many times if needed) brings my spirit to a place of awareness, serenity, and self love. My humanness and relationship with others is enriched by the conscious connection with Divinity. It just takes one step in front of the other and deep breaths…then I find God echoing through all of me.

Answers come when we let go and make room for them. While we try to control the outcome we cannot hear. The only way is to step out of the mind and be led through the essence of my heart. In that space is where truth lies for me!

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What I Offer

What can I offer you? What can I say that you have not heard from others? How will my words make a difference?

It’s frequency. It’s in the knowing that I am holding space when we meet or talk. It’s in feeling my love without judgment. It’s in reaching out to me and me returning the gift of you with extra sparkles.

I am you. We are mirrors. That’s all. I spent a large part of my life believing I was pretty invisible. I had nothing really to say that mattered. What could I possibly offer anyone?

Now that’s shifted. The old programming has melted with lots and lots of release. I had to work out my kinks and beliefs of worthlessness. I had to love me.

So…I offer me. I offer vulnerability, the essence of understanding, and the ability to love fully. I offer you empathy and acceptance regardless of what the world has told you that you are NOT.

I used to be that way too. I can promise you that you are magnificent. You are a masterpiece. You are here to learn and teach and love fully.

So what can I offer you?

A sparkly giddy reflection of you! I see you. I feel you. I am connected to you. I offer you love. And, darling, you are freaking yummilicious. ~m.a.p.

Your Freedom to be You

I have come to a place in life that is quite different than any other time before this. I have become ultra sensitive to my own yearnings and feelings. I have begun (finally) to honor those things that are uncomfortable and those that bring me to a higher space of ecstatic joy.

Who knew this evolution could be so potent and magical!

I used to walk on eggshells. I was constantly worrying about how others would see me (in person or through my writing). I would sensor things in order not to hurt anyone’s feelings. That was NOT fair to my spirit. I would question my messages and stories. I was keeping me hostage on many levels.

I learned a powerful lesson: I am only responsible for what I say, not how others interpret my words.

Why should I censor everything because it is being personalized? I don’t attack anyone in my writing or in person. I don’t ask anyone to read my blog or my postings. I rarely mention anything about religious groups, political agendas, world news or any gray matter that can cause friction. I realize you cannot make every person happy.

I became free to be me. Once I was able to let go of how others saw me I could be authentic. In my case, it’s through writing. In your life it might be singing, coaching, playing a sport, yoga, or whatever. The moment you no longer worry how others see you your soul elevates to a higher frequency. This human business is hard enough without giving others power over your passions. So STOP! Do what you feel like doing in however shape that shows up! You’ve got this, darling!!!

Pain is Temporary

I met a young man at Starbucks today. He had a huge tattoo on his right arm that read PAIN IS TEMPORARY. I was waiting on my drink. He was typing away in his computer. I got close to him and said, “That’s some powerful truth right there!” As I pointed to his arm. He smiled. He showed me the other arm that coincided with that one. “They go together!” (I can’t remember what it read now). I felt he had been in the military. I am sure something in his other markings offered that knowing. I don’t notice things like that.

I thanked him. I went to sit in a corner and drink my tea. On the way out I was throwing my garbage in front of him. He thanked me again. I looked straight into his brown eyes and said, “You are a magnificent powerful soul. You are changing the world. Just your presence is an example! Please continue to rise to that essence that passes through you.”

His eyes smiled before his lips. He shook his head in agreement. He knows it. I know it. The world knows it. His story is his. His scars are there visibly seen under all his images. I’m always in awed of those who hold themselves with such power and love in spite of atrocities. I believe he had seen plenty.

Unfortunately, I didn’t get an image of his tattoo. But I didn’t have to. It’s imprinted in my memory. Pain is temporary. Nothing lasts forever.

Stepping Back

It’s important to step back at times and reflect on what’s YOUR life and YOUR small world. This forces us to make strong decisions, shift gears and partake in individual retreats. This places the focus on dreams, goals, and aspirations without doubting what anyone will think. You must close off the world for a few weeks, days or hours. I have had to entertain just what’s in front of me…making my world very tiny. I have needed to see through tunnel vision for just a few days to stop the chit chat, the excessive manner of deflecting on what my soul truly needs. We are all busy. This detachment allows for just a small window with a giant breathing room to grow…I am lucky mine is a tiny room looking at the yard that is also the laundry room.

I go silent. I take in the world around me and use it as an echo from Spirit. This funnel of sorts makes everything doable. I can find answers in this space. My incense is lit. My body molds the old chair. I leave to another place and I can pray, ask, and receive.

I love the connection of social media but its ability to suck life at any time can be overwhelming. It’s a constant love-hate relationship for me. Just when I think I find a balance something happens and I realize I am not balanced at all. It’s an illusion. In trying to grow a business or helping others, this form of communication is magical. But, unfortunately, it is also distracting because you focus on what’s not yours. It’s easier to focus on everyone else. It’s easier to answer messages, give advice, channel divine wisdom for others. I may seem like a total extrovert, but I am really a hermit at heart. I am complex that way. I need people, but I need plenty of alone time to figure out what is important for me. When making a life-changing decision there has to be space…alone…to truly connect with Spirit. My spirituality is the utmost importance for me to follow. I need my daily rituals. I am truly blessed with the love and support from folks who have never met me, but because of this forum, we are connected at the touch of a button.

I ask that you dig deep with your heels in the ground. Go be outdoors. Go find time to just be. No distractions. Just be alone to allow your higher self the ability to speak loud and clearly. You will find the answers once you silence the chaotic mind. You will also find mysticism and see things that you are blind to witness during other busy times. Ahhh! Illusions fall away!!!!

I love you! Have a magical day. ~m.a:p.

Be Free, Darling

I want you to feel free. I desire that for you. I wish you to know what it feels to be unstuck…no longer bounded by society or anyone else making you feel like a prisoner. It’s all an illusion. No one can make you feel anything. You hold the key to your freedom. You are the prison and the moment you stop giving someone the power….ahhhh…you will fly. I promise. I was there. I know. And now, on the other side, I wonder why it took me so long.

Someone told me this week that they are tired of feeling that they are prisoners of everyone else’s life but their own. She’s given her power away. And at this point she’s determined to continue believing this lie. She will create stories to fill that reality. It’s old programming.

We have the ability to change every single moment. Our thoughts drive our intention. It’s not easy. Hell, it feels impossible. But it’s not. You are possible. You are magnificent. ~m.a.p.